Complicated Tortured So~ul

I Will Forget You ) 그럴 겁니다… 잊을 겁니다

2011-04-20T11:20:00.001+08:00

그럴 겁니다 잊을 겁니다 오늘부터 난
그대란 사람 모르는 겁니다 한번도 본 적 없는 겁니다
길을 걷다가도 스친 적 없는
괜찮습니다 잊었습니다 바쁜 일상에 행복하죠
근사해 보이는 사람도 만나고

사랑이 다 그렇죠 시간이 가면 희미해져
기억조차 할 수도 없겠죠 Oh

사랑이 가면 또 다른 사랑이 다시 올 겁니다 꼭 그럴 겁니다
지금은 아파도 조금만 지나면 아물 겁니다
그럴 겁니다 잊을 겁니다 나도 그럴 겁니다

어렵진 않아요 오늘만 아프면 모든 게 잊혀질 겁니다
달라진 일상에 어색할 뿐이죠 Oh~ NO

사랑이 다 그렇죠 시간이 가면 희미해져
기억조차 할 수도 없겠죠 그렇죠~

사랑이 가면 또 다른 사랑이 다시 올 겁니다 꼭 그럴 겁니다
지금은 아파도 조금만 지나면 아물 겁니다
그럴 겁니다 잊을 겁니다 나도 그럴 겁니다

모두 지울 겁니다
꼭 그럴 겁니다

사랑이 가면 또 다른 사랑이 다시 올 겁니다 꼭 그럴 겁니다
눈물이 흘러도 조금만 지나면 웃을 겁니다
그럴 겁니다 (이젠) 잊을 겁니다 (이젠) 상처가 아물 듯..
그럴 겁니다 그럴 겁니다 잊을 겁니다

I Will Forget You (Geureol Keomnida… Ijeul Keomnida) – Romanization

geureol geomnida ijeul geomnida oneulbuteo nan
geudaeran saram moreuneun geomnida hanbeondo bon jeok eomneun geomnida
gireul geotdagado seuchin jeok eomneun
gwaenchanseumnida ijeossseumnida bappeun ilsange haengbokhajyo
geunsahae boineun saramdo mannago

sarangi da geureochyo sigani gamyeon huimihaejyeo
gieokjocha hal sudo eopgetjyo Oh

sarangi gamyeon tto dareun sarangi dasi ol geomnida kkok geureol geomnida
jigeumeun apado jogeumman jinamyeon amul geomnida
geureol geomnida ijeul geomnida nado geureol geomnida

eoryeopjin anhayo oneulman apeumyeon modeun ge ichyeojil geomnida
dallajin ilsange eosaekhal ppunijyo Oh~ NO

sarangi da geureochyo sigani gamyeon huimihaejyeo
gieokjocha hal sudo eopgetjyo geureochyo~

sarangi gamyeon tto dareun sarangi dasi ol geomnida kkok geureol geomnida
jigeumeun apado jogeumman jinamyeon amul geomnida
geureol geomnida ijeul geomnida nado geureol geomnida

modu jiul geomnida
kkok geureol geomnida

sarangi gamyeon tto dareun sarangi dasi ol geomnida kkok geureol geomnida
nunmuri heulleodo jogeumman jinamyeon useul geomnida
geureol geomnida (ijen) ijeul geomnida (ijen) sangcheoga amul deut..
geureol geomnida geureol geomnida ijeul geomnida

I Will Forget You – Translation

I will forget you. Starting today,
I don’t know you. I have never seen you.
We never even walked pass eachother.
I’m okay. I forgot everything. I’m happy with my busy life.
I’ve met a great person too.

Love is always like this. It fades away after some time.
Can’t even remember it, Oh.

# When love goes away, another love comes again. It definitely will.
Even if it hurts now, it will hear a little later.
It will forget. I will too.

It’s not difficult. I will forget everything after today.
I’m just getting used to my changed life. Oh~ No.

Love is always like this. It fades away after some time.
Can’t even remember it. Yes~

# REPEAT

I will erase everything.
I definitely will.

When love goes away, another love comes again. It definitely will.
Even if tears fall now, I will smile a little later.
I will (now) forget you (now). Just like a wound heals…
I will. I will. I will forget you.

** credits Blue 923@Cnblue-sky.net (romanization) + 1takeKK@Cnblue-sky.net (translation) + lemonlove9@youtube + z00mgg@asianfanatics

Saturday --> D day!

2011-04-19T17:06:00.003+08:00

Still being stubborn, I haven't given up yet.
But then again, there's no doubt i guess i know the answer all along
So I've made an appointment with a lady who is able to read thru tarot cards..
Seem to be quite accurate, because initially I've decided to no longer go for these readings..
After my sister came back, she told me 2 things....

- the fate with "x" still yet to end..
- my house was somewat haunted

Darn!!! Unbelievable but true..
I found out that my place was in fact being exorcist before.. and that spirit is in fact at the corridor and not in my house..
another one.... no comments.. SIGH.......................

Can I deny them???
Getting ready for another trip to SG.. tiring wan i guess..

- 19th Apr 2011, 1712 -

Worst Day Ever

2011-04-12T13:51:00.003+08:00

My weekend didn't went well... first of all, the class teacher assist. position was not a bed of roses... governing bunch of horrible monsters was the last thing i would take up not to mention, rich ones...they just don't listen no matter how much shouting so they would stop running. and they only stop when i ran over to grab them over the shoulder... sigh.. Secondly, I'm a complete idiot! I feel so used and stupid for doing all those silly stuff only to realize they are all going to drain.. I'm so emotionally drained with the "Questions" "Why" and stuff like that.. Why can't i can a straight answer? Probably i do know the answer all along.. It could be that I just don't want to face with the ultimate result that i was afraid to know.. Should I put all it behind and move on? My heart and brain just won't work hand in hand.. God, ancestors.. I've been praying to get "The-One"!!! the Genuine one~! not the bad ones.. why do i always get the bad ass... I broke down yesterday... in fact took emergency leave to attend to my so called "messed-up" emotions.. Didn't really had them sorted out properly yet... Was lucky to have K although we're miles apart but emotional support was a blessing! I love u so much K~!!!!! You're God sent angel to me~

Hello anyone there?

2011-04-05T15:54:00.003+08:00

5th April 2011.... I've been thinking and thinking if I should continue blogging using this blog of mine or start anew.. At first, my intention was to blog about my life journal anonymously so I can express freely without to worry about friends or family finding out.. My life.... seems to be so secretive..even at this age I still live the life according to what was expected from me.. But being myself...I have this hidden rebellious streak in me.. At times i just hate the way i live my life.... I just want to break free and do things i like without the care of how others view / judge me... fark them... Right now... I'm living 2 life ... 2 face... 2 masks..... How long can I keep this up.... Why God has to play such big joke on me?

Ain't going well on Monday~

2010-04-05T18:15:00.003+08:00

5th April 2010

First of all, I already hate Sunday because Monday comes next...
And I detest Monday because recently many things don't seem to go right like...

This morning, again I forget to take my strawberries that I've packed for breakfast.
Met retarded driver on the road... bloody farking lorry hogging the fast lane ... so when I overtook the bloody fella, he gave a chase.
However I was in the highway so I just speed up until I came to the PSDC turning, and he caught up.
I knew he was driving slowly purposely to make me feel intimidated but... I don't give a damn..

If he came down, I only have a bloody old car (like i care!).. and I have a metal rod...
Life also I only have one.. come claim it if you can! Bloody Mad Idiotic Farkers

Then came in to the office on time... I make sure I'm on track with all my opens...
Managed to keep most of it on time...
Until the ultimate one.. Updating the Flex contract changes..I started at about 3pm.. and managed to do a very good job..
When I'm almost done at 6pm.... I save my file in another version and forget to keep the original copy.

WTF!!! WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Screaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmm)
URGH!!!!!
Farking 3 hours of work gone and now I'm sitting on my desk don't know where to start

*Sob Sob Sob

Bread Pudding~

2010-04-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

Saturday, April 3rd 2010

I don't know what came into me last night but suddenly I remembered about the bread pudding I had in Singapore and I can't stop thinking bout it!

So I decided to make one today.. Searched for the recipe online on Friday nite d.. haha

Today woke up late, about 10.30++.. get ready and went to Jusco to grab stuff like milk, sugar and strawberries...

Went straight down to pick my sis and drop by my aunt's house coz couz also made "Otak-otak" and "Tdukbokki" Korean rice cake in hot paste :)

Came back home about 5.30+ and started preparing the bread pudding...

Tada...

Friday - April 2nd already??

2010-04-02T14:05:00.003+08:00

2nd April 2010..

Sigh.. time really flies..
Recently I've been really into my work so much that most of the time I wasn't aware when it's time to go home..
Time is really short for me and sometimes I just wished the time would stop for a while...

Am very stressed... so stressed that recently I'm having a painful and tight feeling in my chest.
Weird... hope it's nothing serious... and should be because of the stress that I'm feeling.

This week or particularly these few days.. I'm in depression mode.. not sure why but after listening to a few Tohoshinki's song (I think I like to call them DBSK since they originated from Korea). Their songs are so beautiful and yet sad.. very very sad!

And I have the urge to share these to some of my frens but again... I'm not putting words into actions...

Chicken~ ^_^

It's weekend again! HOpe I can rest & rejuvenate at home... but I don't want the lonely feeling with me..

Go away~ Shoo....

With All My Heart ～君が踊る、夏～ (T/N: ~Kimiga odoru, natsu~)

2010-04-02T13:58:00.003+08:00

I really hope to share this song here... wait I'm to embed a playlist on my blog~
Again, another beautiful yet sad love song...

and thanks to the original translator and source:

Source: yuulinajae @ youtube
Translation: smiley @ OneTVXQ.com
Special thanks: diana© & Lexy & xU & junsulv @ OneTVXQ.com
Credits: OneTVXQ.com { One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ! }

With All My Heart ～君が踊る、夏～ (T/N: ~Kimiga odoru, natsu~)
(Lyrics, composed, and arranged by Shinjiroh Inoue)

Artist: 東方神起
Lyrics by: Shinjiroh Inoue
Composed: Shinjiroh Inoue

鏡に映った　掛け違えたシャツのボタン
Kagamini utsutta kakechigaeta shatsuno botan
Reflected on the mirror, the buttons of my shirts are in the wrong buttonholes

そんな些細な事で君がいれば良かったと思う
Sonna sasaina kotode kimiga ireba yokattato omou
Even with these little things, I truly long for you

逢えない時間が　僕らの愛を強くした
Aenai jikanga bokurano aiwo tsuyokushita
The time we cannot spend together has deepened our love

言葉に詰まるならそっと頬にkissをしよう
Kotobani tsumarunara sotto hooni kiss wo shiyou
If I’m at a loss in words, I’ll just kiss you lightly on your cheek

それぞれを待つ日々は　忙しく過ぎるけど
Sorezorewo matsu hibiha isogashiku sugirukedo
The days longing for each other quickly passes by

こんなにもこんなにもただ…
Konnanimo konnanimo tada…
So fast, so fast, only..

逢いたくて　ずっと君を思うよ… 心から君を
Aitakute zutto kimiwo omouyo.. kokorokara kimiwo
I miss you, My thoughts are always with you… from the bottom of my heart

もう一度　my heart 伝えたくて
Mouichido my heart tsutaetakute
Once again, I want to give my heart to you

君が呼べば　僕は行くよ
Kimiga yobeba bokuha yukuyo
If you call me, I’ll go to you

君のそばで笑いたいんだよ
Kimino sobade waraitaindayo
I want to smile by your side

ふとした瞬間　傷ついてしまった心
Futoshita shunkan kizutsuite shimatta kokoro
By mere moments, your heart may be hurt

ひとりじゃ直せない痛み　僕が癒したいよ
Hitorija naosenai itami bokuga iyashitaiyo
I want to comfort your hurts which cannot be healed alone

今逢えない時なら　ただ君の面影を
Ｉma aenai tokinara tada kimino omokagewo
If I cannot be by your side, I’ll just

抱きしめて　抱きしめてほら…
Dakishimete dakishimete hora …
Hold you shadow in my heart, hold in my heart, and…

どんな日も　ずっと君思うよ…心から君を
Donna himo zutto kimiwo omouyo … kokorokara kimiwo
All the days, my thoughts are always with you… from the bottom of my heart

もう二度と your heart 離さないから
Mou nidoto your heart hanasanaikara
I will never let go of your heart again

君が泣けば　僕は行くよ
Kimiga nakeba bokuha yukuyo
If you cry, I’ll go to you

君をいつも守りたいんだよ
Kimiwo itsumo mamoritaindayo
I want to always stand by your side

君が望むなら　全てを尽くして
Kimiga nozomunara subetewo tsukushite
If it is your wish, I’ll try every means

君の描く未来　永遠の夢を叶えたい I wish
Kimino egaku eienno yumewo kanaetai I wish
I want to grant your future, your eternal dreams, I wish

逢いたくて　ずっと君思うよ… 心から君を
Aitakute zutto kimi omouyo … kokoro kara kimiwo
I miss you, my thoughts are always with you, from the bottom of my heart

何度でも to heart 贈る　smile for you
Nandodemo to heart okuru smile for you
For countless times, to heart, I’ll smile for you

悲しくても　嬉しくても
Kanashikutemo ureshikutemo
Even though sad, or happy

君のそばで笑いたいんだよ
Kimino sobade waraitaindayo
I want to smile by your side

With all my heart
With all my heart
With all my heart

Find me, and I’ll be there for you
Find me, and I’ll be there for you
Find me, and I’ll be there for you

時ヲ止メテ Tokiwo Tomete (I want to be with you Forever) by Tohoshinki

2010-04-02T13:49:00.002+08:00

I'm the mood for love...
So I'm sharing this songs with the translation...
Very beautiful and touching song ~~

Credits back to the owner of this romanized lyrics and translation :)
Thank you so much for sharing this~

時ヲ止メテ
TOKIWO TOMETE
I WANT TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER

Lyrics by Shinjiroh Inoue
Music by Ichiro Fujiya
Arranged by Daisuke Kahara

急ぐように夏の星座たちが　ビルの谷間に傾いて隠れてく
Isoguyouni natsuno seiza　tachiga biruno tanimani katamuite kakureteku
The summer stars are rushing away and fading out behind the buildings

通り過ぎる僕らの毎日　ちっぽけな事で　泣きそうな時もある
Toorisugiru bokurano mainichi chippokena kotode nakisouna tokimoaru
As the days are speeding by, I’m almost in tears even with little things

いつか君が行きたがっていた　あの店はもう無くなってしまったけど
Itsuka kimiga ikitagatteita ano miseha mounakunatte shimattakedo
The shop that you have wanted to go has gone

どんな日も僕たちは　「ふたりの恋は終わらない」と信じていた
Donna himo bokutachiha futarino koiwa owaranaito shinjiteita
We have always believed that our love will never fade away

時ヲ止メテ　ずっと君の　そばにいたい
Tokiwo tomete zutto kimino sobaniitai
I want be with you forever, my love

見上げた空　願い込めて
Miageta sora negai komete
Looking up to the sky, I wish with all my heart

ひとつひとつ　輝く星　繋げながら
Hitotsuhitotsu kagayaku hoshi tsunagenagara
Connecting the sparkling stars one by one

君の形・・・探してた
Kimino katachi … sagashiteta
I am longing… for your shadow

好きだよって　上手に言えなくって　波打ち際で震えた　幼い恋
Sukidayotte jouzuni ienakutte namiuchigiwade furueta osanai koi
I’m not good in expressing my love for you, my first love is trembling at the water’s edge

たどたどしく　並んだ目と目が　瞬きさえも　惜しいと感じていた
Tadotadoshiku naranda metomega mabatakisaemo oshiito kanjiteita
Haltingly, side by side, our eyes can’t even spare one blink

砂に書いた誓いはすぐに　引く波にさらわれて　消えてしまっても
Sunani kaita chikaiha suguni hiku namini sarawarete kiete shimattemo
Even though our words are written in the sand, it will be immediately washed away by the waves

あの頃の僕たちは　「ふたりの恋は変わらない」と信じていた
Anokorono bokutachiwa futarino koiha kawaranai to shinjiteita
During those days, we have always believed that our love will never fade away

時ヲ止メテ　ずっと君の　そばにいたい
Tokiwo tomete zutto kimino sobaniitai
I want be with you forever, my love

もっと君を　抱きしめたい
Motto kimiwo dakishimetai
I want to hold you, again and again

ひとつひとつ　君の事を　覚えながら
Hitotsuhitotsu kiminokotowo oboenagara
As I’ve recognized you step by step

永遠だけ・・・信じてた
Eiendake shinjiteta
I just believed in an eternal love

時ヲ止メテ　ずっと君の　そばにいたい
Tokiwo tomete zutto kimino sobaniitai
I want be with you forever, my love

見上げた空願い込めて
Miageta sora negai komete
Looking up to the sky, I wish with all my heart

ひとつひとつ　輝く星　繋げながら
Hitotsuhitotsu kagayaku hoshi tsunagenagara
Tying all the shining stars together

君の形・・・　探してた
Kimino katachi sagashiteta
I am longing… for your shadow

時ヲ止メテ　ずっと君の　そばにいたい
Tokiwo tomete zutto kimino sobaniitai
I want be with you forever, my love

もっと君を　　抱きしめたい
Moｔｔo kimiwo　dakishimetai
I want to hold you, again and again

ひとつひとつ　君の事を　覚えながら
Hitotsuhitotsu kiminokotowo oboenagara
I’ve recognized you step by step

永遠だけ・・・信じてた
Eiendake shinjiteta
I just believed in an eternal love

T/N: The title in Japanese is 「時ヲ止メテ」, and can be directly translated as “Stop the time”. Here, Shinjiroh Inoue (the lyrics writer) is using katakana characters, not the usual 「時を止めて」 with hiragana characters. I believe that Inoue has included a special meaning, and the meaning is especially difficult to express in English.
In the very last part of the song, there is the lyrics 永遠だけ・・・信じてた (T/N: I just believed in an eternal love), so I thought 「時ヲ止メテ」 maybe a symbol or symbolic representation of the song, meaning “forever”. Therefore, though not literally correct, I’ve made the trans as above, not including “Stop the time”. I also personally think that “Stop the time” is not really poetic….Thank you for your understanding!

T/N2: As you can see, many of our O! staffs have given their precious time in order to post this topic up in such a fast timing. Thank you, staffs!!

source: BEST SELECTION 2010 & ArisaTakabayashi @ youtube
translation: smiley @ OneTVXQ.com
special thanks: deevinne, ミ♥ Lovedust, linhkawaii, junsulv, Lexy @ OneTVXQ.com
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안되나요 나를 사랑하면

2010-03-31T14:55:00.003+08:00

Can't u love me?

If you post the above in FB or any status update, ppl will probably jump to one conclusion...
You're trying to get a guy/gal to love you... however have you tried to think about yr loved ones like your family?

This is the love and attention I crave for.. though I don't deny I want to be romantically loved by a significant other however the most important thing in life would be your family and friends!
Well, I feel that I'm not really being favoured at home... (Whoa... I did say I feel right?)

Yeah! That's the exact reaction they gave me. Sadly ... they say I'm overly jealous & self centered. They also claimed I'm very fortunate already. I know and I agreee.. only partly.

If I'm jealous and self centered;

would I gave up studying my favourite subject and take up accounting? cheapest subject & has the most openings?
would I stop studying to help when dad looses his part time job?
would I get a car and service a RM600 loan per month while I'm only earning RM850 per mth?
did I make a big fuss when you paid her study loan of 20K? I know you paid for almost 10K on my studies too.
Gettin this job isn't my favourite line.. but for survival..do I have other choice?
Did I asked to be entangled in a bad and failed relationship that cost me so dearly?

Many of the above are not what I asked for or wanted to do... I too, want to study my favourite subject, a career to my liking, a good relationship.... but this is life.. and it's harsh...

However, do you have to stomp on me when all I did was a saying a stupid joke?

I'm extremely disappointed .... so painful that I cried non stop...

This was the worst time of life after my 'painful' experience in year 2003 & 2007.

Just wished I was gone in year 2003 and I don't have to go through this....

Fate has it..... and I'm still here .... sadly.....

My Baby~

2010-03-31T12:40:00.002+08:00

Dont u just love her?

Should I keep a daily journal online?

2010-03-31T12:24:00.004+08:00

31st March 2010

Again I've abandoned my blog for ages...
Last post was getting all excited and waiting in vain if I could participate in the Global Meeting in Hong Kong..

Well, the story was too long to write down here.. there are memorable and horrible ones to remember. But it was great to meet up with both European and US Managers to touch base and to put a face & voice to name ^_^
I enjoy the attention I received there (I'm considered a Junior and I'm fortunate to be accepted and cared by them - both young and old)

HOng Kong.. easy to travel around with the clear direction on the MTR route and of course, spoken language was a problem for me though... coz I don't speak Cantonese
But I understand them :)

I have had a culture shock! I would say some of the ppl I've met were extremely rude :(
Prices there are rather high - For me ! (at least :( coz I'm poor)
But interestingly I got to LOVE Disneyland! Sorry but I've been a fan of Japanese Anime & Manga but not really on Disney cartoons...

InterContinental ~ Bestest hotel but extremely expansive T_T

나락 by Wheesung

2010-01-25T14:13:00.002+08:00

I really love this song so I tried to romanized the lyrics :)
Sorry if it's not very accurate and correction from readers are welcome~! ^_^

나락 (Narak) by Wheesung
우린 안된다고 말을 한거라면
u rin an dwi da go mareul han gyo ra myeon
내가 잘못들은게 아니라면 음..
nae ga jal mok deureun ge aniramyeon eum
가슴 찢어질듯 아픈 일이지만
ga seum jjik oejir deuk a peun irijiman
사랑하는 그대를 보낼게요..
sarang ha neun geudae neul bo nael ge yo
안울게요... 편하게 가세요..
anul ge yo pyeon ha gae ga se yo
안볼게요... 떠나는 뒷모습..
an bul gae yo ddo na neun dwemoseub
안빌게요... 막지 않을테니..
an bir ge yo makji aneul teni
잘가세요... 행복하세요..
jalgasae yo haeng bokaseyo

우리 만남을 허락 해주신 은혜
uri man namuel horak hae boksin eunhe
갚을수 있는 길은 오직 체념
gapeul su it neun gireun o jik che nyeom
부족함이란 벽에 부딪힌 내가
bo jok hami ran byeoge budit hin nae ga
무슨 힘으로 그댈 잡겠나요
mu seunim euro geu daer jab gejna yo
안울게요... 편하게 가세요..
anul ge yo pyeon ha ge ga se yo
안볼게요... 떠나는 뒷모습..
an bor ge yo ddeo na neun dwit mo seub
안빌게요... 막지않을테니..
anbir ge yo makji aneul de ni
잘가세요... 행복하세요..
jalgase yo haeng boka se yo

안울지만... 눈물이 흘러요..
anul ji man nun muri hera yo
안보지만... 그대가 보이죠..
an bo ji ma geu dae ga boijyo
안빌지만... 무릎을 내리고..
an bir jiman mu reupeul nae rigo
가지말라... 외치고 있죠..
gaji malra dwichigo itjyo
기다리고 기다려봐도
gidarigo gidaryo bya do
준적없었던 사랑한단 그
junjeok eotat deon sarang handan geu
짧은 말 인사대신
jjakeun marin sadae sin
남기고 갈수는 없나요
namgi go gar su neun eotnayo
단 한번도 한적없는 부탁을
dan hanbyeondo han jyeok ak neun bu takeul
들어주세요 나를 사랑한다고
duereo ju seyo na reul sarang han da go
한마디만 못이긴척 하세요
han ma di man muni gin cheok ha se yo

어쩌면 평생 아플 가슴
eo jjeo myeon saeng apeul ga seum
가엾다면 사랑한다 말해요
gayeot damyeon sarang handa marae yo

New Toy ~ Lumix DMC-FS 15

2010-01-25T13:30:00.001+08:00

Finally I've bought myself a new toy.
A Lumix camera however I'm still a newbie and I sucks at taking picture.

Below is a picture of my current work station :)

STOP using "A!!ah" in Christian Churches

2010-01-11T16:08:00.004+08:00

11th January 2010

**This is going to be an ugly ranting and quite controversial post..
Hope i don't get into trouble T_T
Because I cannot stand to read on...

NOTE:- This is just a personal point of view.

Oh for the good heavens sake! Can we all Catholics stop using the freaking word?
As IF like any other community need this translation.
As IF all Catholics are conversing in Malay language ???

WHY CAN THEY JUST USE ENGLISH, TAMIL AND MANDARIN ???

STOP this freaking useless fight to use this friggin word~!

I, for one feel so farking ashamed to use this controversial word!
It doesn't make any farking sense.. it's just plain stupid!!!!!
It's like I'm praying to their GOD, I also feel offended!
That's one thing I hate to attend masses that has mixed languages!
Sucks!!! Where goes all the purely English masses??

Why can't all the Christian fellowship think this way?
If THEY cannot think straight, why are we following them??
Just let them have their way..Problem solved!
No more damages and issues~~

Hope for PEACE on earth and this rest this issue faster!

DAMN!!! I think I found a pet scammer!

2010-01-08T22:45:00.007+08:00

8th January 2010

Farking shit!
I found one pet scammer..
I was looking for a Siberian Husky and thought I could adopt one in order to save some $$.
But I know I'm naive.
How can you get to adopt Husky when they are highly in demand and quite hard to find.
Furthermore, one would fetch up to about 1K++ to 2K++.

Well, my fren GL was looking for a pet and we sort of chat about it.
And I told her I'm looking for a Siberian Husky and how hard to buy what more to adopt?

But later in the evening, she told me she found ad on Husky up for adoption
I find it quite hard to accept however she sent me the web address and I gave a look.
However I find it to be fishy because the very same ad appear on every state in Malaysia.
The picture of the pup looked like just taken from the web (Too beautiful to be true)

Anyhow.., I didn't do anything but GL responded to the ad and she got shocked so she told me the next morning.

I was also shocked too !! Anyhow the email at first seems genuine..it somehow showed that they care for the pups and wants to know if those pups goes to good family.

And I responded to the email as well by asking the few stuff like how old are the pups, the behaviour and photos!

But all I got was another email telling me there are well trained bla bla bla and the MOST shocking thing is that they are from Kuwait! the pups will be from KUWAIT!
And HE (from a "SHE" became a HE!) told me he would ship it right away and it would arrive in Malaysia 4-5 hours..

Fark, Mutha Farker !! You think I'm so stupid?? I'm from forwarding company you think I would buy yr crap?? Even by Air it would take days!!!

In the end I know definitely this is wrong!! Something so farking wrong!
So I send another email saying i'm only interested in adopting locally and not importing them.

Guess what?? He replied almost immediately that he will pay half the delivery and I can do for the rest.. Both he and I happy and I get the pups..

Fark !! Just Farking mad!!!

Below are some screen shots of that scammer!
Well to my opinion.. And if you have time google up his name with pet.
You'll find this in the cybercrimecops in the link here!!!
And you be the judge!

Hong Kong on Feb 22 ~ 26

2010-01-06T14:19:00.003+08:00

Darn~! so fast... Am not sure if I need to attend or not.

The next team meeting will be held in Hong Kong.. and it's from Feb 22nd till 26th..

Sigh....Why am I not so looking forward to since I've never been to Hong Kong??

New housemate~

2010-01-06T14:03:00.002+08:00

6th January 2010

Finally I have a new housemate. I've rented out the 3rd room of my apartment to one of my coursemate. Actually I'm reluctant to do at first..

Well, I'm ... afterall a selfish creature. I wanted the new place wholely to myself. hahaha
But heck, she's one friend I'm fond of...

So, yes.. she's moving in this Friday... and I wanted her to be comfortable.. so I planned to get a water heater to be fix in the bathroom (outside) and a washing machine.

Everything new! Imagine that... 32' Flat screen tv, hi-fi set (Yamaha), new fridge, microwave, dining table and sofa...

Her room's furniture set also had been given a new coat of paint!
She just need a bed and fan!

Everything at the charge of 180/mth (Inclusive of water and electric usage).

Well.. the setback is that there's no carpark for her.. Hell ! even us having hard time on the carpark. I've only got one ...

All in all, I just need her to treasure all these things and use properly..

She'll have privacy since I don't always go there and so is my sis.

And I hope we can be better than just housemates..or landlady with tenants .. but close frens..
I'm looking for long lasting friendship~

Pictures :)

2010-01-04T17:34:00.003+08:00

Here are my hot babes and darling and honey's..
Oh yeah.. did I mentioned I've given up ciggies?
Yeah.. you read it correctly.. my body is rejecting them..
Tried to have one but end up wanna vomit and have headaches..

Weird hor?? but good la.. :)

He called.. numerous times??

2010-01-04T16:32:00.002+08:00

4th Jan 2010.

New Year.. new beginnings..
But why the heck I feel so shitty about this new year..

First I was shocked to know that one of my uncles passed away when X'mas was just round the corner. Lord has called him home because HE loves him more and taking away all his sufferings and pain. My uncle was fighting with lung cancer for a year now. He was in the 3rd stage when he first found out bout this.. Life's unfair.. he was not a drinker nor smoker... however due to the poisonous fumes emit from the ink of printing machines made him succumbed to this illness..

Next was I got a call from him while I was driving my cousin sis to a pet shop.. I couldn't recognize his number so I answered using speaker phone! Darn and there she was listening while I pretend to continue the conversation like normal and told her I don't know who the heck I was talking to. But I have a feeling she knows...
Anyway I called back, wanted to know what he wants as he did call me before to get help on computer stuff. I'm not really against him calling and I was willing to help him in anything that may help him be better in life. But this time he just wanna get updates on me and used a lame reason. I thought I was mature enough but I was kind of agitated and it felt awkward coz I don't really wants to know if he's grew fatter or how many gals he managed to bed in KB.. I just thought he drowned there with all the floods that has been happening.. Sigh.. evil me..

The best thing about last year was meeting up with all my best friends.. Esp KL, SM, MM, BN, AL, ML, KO and so much more... One of The best New Year Eve I ever had! We waited for the countdown at Sunset bistro.. Went there about 5pm and sat the whole night there.. Drink so freakin much that I had headache.. :P

Miss the gals so much...

XoXo

Palm reading, anyone ??

2009-12-07T10:58:00.004+08:00

7th Dec'09

Yesterday I had some free time and was feeling damn good (I mean I was having a good mood muahaha ^_^) so I decided to take my mum to a temple in Balik Pulau for her prayers..

Note:
Only mum alone still embracing her own religion when the rest of us are Roman Catholics.

We took a slow drive up only to find the temple is closed ~_~" .. aiyo... really bad~
In the end she just went over to pray for a while without all the offerings..

After that, while trying to find our way back home, suddenly my mum suggest to go pay the "Palm reading" sifu a visit to have our palm readings..

We managed to find the place and the aunty was open for business. (each reading cost MYR 10)

Mum had her reading first..Overall was good..

Then I had mine read as well... not something I look forward for but somehow it confirmed with my own query as well..

(I know, I look like a desperado looking for a relationship.. but I can't help it) So the big question was "Am I able to get married?"

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Aunty said... "It's better to be single for the rest of yr life".. "It was meant to be this way as this is yr fate in this life "

ME: "HUH ?? You mean I won't be able to have my own family?"

Aunty "You'll have alot of hardship.... I didn't not say you'll never get married.. You can but you have to shoulder all the family's responsibilities...this including $$...So if you can or would like to enjoy much better life.. you could consider being single as you'll enjoy more freedom and $$... less suffer ma.... "

ME: "....................-speechless-........................."

Sigh... I'm suddenly worried that my parents are aging very fast! my dad is already going to 60's. My sis is not going to get married any sooner and so am I!, DUH!!
And they are hinting that this family is missing grandchildren...

So I suddenly have the pressure of failing being a filial daughter..
There are so many "if"s... and I'm regretting many of my wrong doings..

What am I going to do?? I'm in a dilemma....but there's nothing much I can do...

Ahh.. but she did mentioned I'm not that all hopeless... unless I can get the following ... then perhaps this matter won't be this bleak..

If you could married someone further from here (Penang).. the further the better, .. or
Find a man that has already divorced or wife that is no longer here.

This has to be the BIGGEST JOKE in my life...

Be it fate or God's doings...

I just FARKING hate it... so many "Why"s..

And this lady's reading is accurate at the about 70% (esp the past and current).

The trick is to let her do the talking.. She'll tell you amazing stuff! and all are bloody accurate.. well almost all,

The place is situated near the church in Balik Pulau.. and this lady is also a Roman Catholice~ How ironic!

Relationship

2009-12-04T16:13:00.005+08:00

11th Dec'09

Talking about relationship.. what does relationship means to everyone?
How long does a relationship lasts?

Lately I've heard quite a number of breakups..
Well it's quite sad to hear when some of them broke up after like 8 yrs ++ together??
Aren't they supposed to advance to the next stage?
Anyway, I've heard 7 yrs into relationship is cursed and couple would break off

Well, for me it's bad for a relationship to go that long without going to the next phase.. marriage & kids..

I mean like both attention will divert to something else.. apart from the "life long commitment of trying to support the family", you have a kid around.. which is something very new that will keep both busy and surprised everytime!! (not to mentioned a lot of frustrations as well hehe)

But I know alot of ppl out there won't agree with me.. but still this is what i thought...

Relationship will became stale.. and boring and all about routine if we remained the same stage.. and it's going to get worst if one party still expect the relationship to be rosy and all.. eg: expect yr partner will be still very observant and sensitive to yr needs... (just to name the crucial few ~ normally applies to gals :P) and yr other half would thought it's okay to slack.. (normally applies to guys) as they don't need to chase after the gals and put on a "fake" face and behaviour

This is the "before" me... and after going thru one and failed horribly in it the second time around..

I used to get agitated and sensitive when my men no longer pays a lot of attention on me (mind you but I was into my 7 yrs of the relationship when I experienced this)

Agitation and sensitivity leads to anger and frustrations...

Anger and frustrations leads to suspicions and trusts are diminishing..

All in all.. this ends up to the end of the relationship..

I got wiser or perhaps I should say... more mature..And I realize these doesn't matter anymore because; the things that I once thought important and vital to the relationship actually causes the relationship to break down.

I don't regret what happened. Because it wasn't meant to be and he was no good to me.. But thanks to him, I've learned many important things in life.

I now don't hold grudges anymore...Once you don't have the hate feeling in you, I believe that is when you no longer love that person.

Because when you hate someone, obviously that important person has hurt you and you feel the pain much longer and deeper.

If a stranger were to make you angry.. I supposed you won't stay in anger or hate that person for long because that person is not really that significant to you.

Right now, I'm getting used to being alone and enjoy the "me" time.. less pressure.. more freedom..

However, it's beginning to feel like a curse that I'll be staying single for the rest of my life.. **cries... that's not good either T_T" hahaha

Anyway, for starters.. if my new man has his own guy thing to do.. I won't be sitting down and accompany him like a some dumba$$ anymore.. I probably find something else that will be more interesting to do..(don't have to stick with him so much! waste of time and he feels I'm just like a hawk watching over ~_~)

I also learned to be more straightforward in my demand or requests.. I won't be giving hints as most of the guys don't get it. In the end both of you will end up in frustration.

No point shouting or nagging at yr guy.. Waste of time and energy. Never work anyway :S

Most of all both must have the same level of understanding and must have respect for each other..

And personal time off from each other is good too ..

Last Month of 2009

2009-12-01T14:09:00.002+08:00

1st Dec'09

Can't believe we've arrived at the last month for Year 2009..
What I've achieved so far?
How far did I complete my 2009 new year resolutions??

....................................NIL..............................................

1. Did i travel to Korea or Taiwan? ---- NIL-----
2. Did i managed to buy my desired car?----NIL---

What i end up with for yr 2009??
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... My own place.. ... my very own sanctuary with a very heavy price and very reluctantly.

Last night the very last electronic item had arrived.. the black Mitsubishi Fridge..

Sleeping there was great! I slept soundly throughout the night..
I drove to work and arrive before 8.30!
Amazing!!!

Love the privacy i enjoyed...
somehow.. some of the bad vibes still lingers on...

We can never run away from that and I known this since the very beginning and yet I still chose this road still.....

Quick!! I need to change it.. I need to replace "his" presence away with something or someone new....

More Hidden Costs!!!

2009-11-18T10:09:00.003+08:00

18th November 2009

**Taking a deep breath...
Niamah~! how many times should I curse him or myself for being stupid or what?
Last week, I went over to my new place to wait for my furniture to arrive.
After that, when I was about to leave I go over to the mailbox only to have myself buried among the flyers and tonnes of letters.

Slowly, going through one by one of those papers, a few ones caught my attention.
The Cukai Tanah and also the Indah Water bill..

MAn~!!!! If he was here the very moment, I would have strangled him or murdered him with any weapons or stuff i can find withing the vicinity to kill him.
- Cukai tanah ~ owing more than MYR 550.
- Indah water bill ~ owing MYR 240.

WTF!!... considered it was a blessing in disguise that I didn't proceed with anymore furniture or renovation works or else... I'm so bloody dead!

The farking bloody leeches actually stayed there for 3 freaking years without paying any farking monies!!!! I just hope they die and rot in hell and also rot and die again!!! multiple folds!!!!

Well, some good news.. the will that I promise that I would pay for him only cost about MYR 500 for a basic one. (Got the quote from Rockwills)

And more ranting....

I want my life back!

I hate rainy working days T_T

I won't be taking the tour guide exams nor will I attend those classes anymore..

Confirmed going to Singapore on 7th Dec and returning on the 9th Dec'09 ~ part of the reason i gave up on the tour guide course.

And most importantly, I finally realize I prefer being a tourist rather than the tourguide.
It's just not me.

Well.. I'm just being honest!

HomeDec ~ Pisa Penang

2009-11-07T22:50:00.004+08:00

7th Nov'09

Heck, I'm really having chest pain since evening now.... Right after visiting the HomeDec exibition, I'm so stressed...

Hmm... start from this morning, went to the Farlim office to settle the maintenance fee

Total - MYR 4000.00

Got the access card and the new car sticker..

Went up to the unit, only to found out the electricty and also water had been cut off...Damn!

Was too late to do anything so need to go pay up everything later this week :(

Proceed to the HomeDec at Pisa... roam around and found mostly are mattresses, dividers, staintless steel auto gate, wall papers..

Anyway only 1 sofa set caught my eye.. I allocated RM 1600 for one of the sofa i found in Leong Gay.. Luckily I didn't make any decision to buy or given any deposit $$.

I actually found one nice one in Pisa :)

But actually blew my budget.. well.. almost abit..RM 1788 but this piece is definitely the best bargain. Original price was about RM2K++ and the factory is from KL, so if I buy during this exibition they are giving free transport fee !

~~ Consider, consider.... tapping on the calculator hard... nevermind.. go look for others first..

My main aim was to get quote for my kitchen cabinet.. HEll the most expansive thing in the whole renovation stuff.. Get a few estimations from a few vendors.. all amounting to > MYR 10K!

Dieness..

Finally found one who was willing to listen and even calculate for me.. and also end up to MYR 8K but they are giving the hob and stove from Runine free!.

~~ tapping tapping calculator more..

Another area... plaster ceiling... since my place was badly done (i meant the workmanship is so rough!) I need to engage someone for the plaster ceiling.. So I found one with only MYR 2.50/sqft.. Abother good bargain as they provide free service to measure but no need to engage them yet..

~~ consider consider...

In the end, I didn't commit to anything..
Well consider i'm lucky~! ^_^

Living or Racing life?

2009-10-19T16:33:00.003+08:00

19th October 2009

I'm having my menses today.. that's why I was pretty cranky lately
Blaming on the "PMS" thing..

So that must be the reason I've been pondering alot things in my mind..

Are we living our life or racing against it?

I begin to feel so tired after buying up the house..
I get so depress when I'm thinking of servicing the damn loan for the next 30 years...
I get so farked up when I can't buy my new car with the number plate i desired..

"PJJ 5652"

Damn...

I want to live a simple life...
Staying in my family landed house.. I love the privacy, the land and the love of my life, my darling June roaming around..
I can spent all my disposable salary.... eat good stuff... buy good stuff..
no burdens... no responsibilities...no worries..

But when I look around.. I finally realize I've fallen so much behind my friends..
They have family.. they are driving brand new cars.. and they have luxury property...

And I finally began to realize I'm craving for a family of my very much.. *sub-consciously !
I began to want to hv a baby... *don't ask how but many ridiculous ways had popped into my mind...

How can this happen when I'm finally began to enjoy single hood...

Why now??

2nd entry for year 2009

2009-10-14T15:08:00.001+08:00

14th October 2009.

I had been neglecting this blog for like ages now...
Not sure why but guess I must be too damn lazy to update or I was too busy "facebook"ing and playing too much games.. or must be too busy with work..

Just a short note..

My fish is dying .... T_T

2009

2009-01-12T20:54:00.003+08:00

I really can't believe everything seems to go by in a blink of an eye.
The first thing i know was my first business trip... and the following one and another one ..
And when things really sunk in, it was near Nov when I had my vacation in Perth which I booked approx in Q2 of 2008..(Darn lazy to upload the photos.. not to mentioned my Bangkok trip)
When I came back, got additional account which irritates me deep to my bones...
But I had it under my control till today I didn't have time to breath or to blog...
I get very tired and ....so little money left..
Guess I've over-spent..

Hope for the best in this Year.. and looking forward for..... :D

AND my next planned vacation: Manila ~ here I came Muahahahahah LOL
*** dieness.. lagi no money..... good thing I'm not married yet.. can recover some after my trip... hahahhaa...

Accuracy of Death @ Sweet Rain 死神の精度

2008-09-29T22:52:00.008+08:00

死神の精度 ~ Shinigami no Seido
Accuracy of Death @ Sweet Rain

Director: Masaya Kekehi
Cast: Takeshi Kaneshiro , Manami Konishi, Sumiko Fuji, Ken Mitsuishi, Takuya Ishida, Jun Murakami, Erika Okuda, Mitsuru Fukikoshi
RunTime: 1 hr 55 mins

Synopsis:
Adapted from the bestselling novel by Kotaro Isaka “The Accuracy of Death”. Chiba (Takeshi Kaneshiro) appears seven days before a person dies an unexpected death. His job is to observe the person for seven days, and then decide either to ‘execute’ or ‘pass over’. Getting his work quickly out of the way, he goes to the listening booth of a CD shop and indulges in his favorite pastime, listening to ‘humanity’s greatest invention’: music.
The story follows Chiba along three inter-related cases spanning forty-three years.

Here's the trailer..

死神の精度 OST ~ Sunny Day by Manami Konishi (the actress herself)

This is the first Japanese movie for Takeshi Kaneshiro in 6 friggin years!!!!

Omigosh, he's still so damn good looking... as if he never age at all..

I still remember I used to go crazy and collect all his stuff during my teenage years...** faints..

And I still fancy him now ^_^ ... specially his voice... oh gawd....

2nd Business Trip to Bangkok on 5th Oct ~ 11th Oct

2008-09-18T22:48:00.009+08:00

I really couldn't believe it myself but my GCS team is having another team meeting in Bangkok on the 6th ~ 10th of Oct where they'll be flying every team member in APAC for the whole week meeting. So most of the team members will be flying down to Bangkok on the 5th and back on either 10th or 11th. And I've been invited as well.. Matt just sent the email in the evening and congratulate me and Janet and also to inform us on the good news!! However, Janet won't be joining me as she needs to take care of her kids.. So I'm travelling alone to Bangkok.

This is really awesome !!! and I'm so bloody excited !!!!
Goodness I'm really flying almost every month now..

Hopefully this trip will be fruitful and I can earned more knowledge and get to know more of our team members :) You know.. get more connections.. get more people to know you.. LOL

At the same time, I'm also scared.. because I've never travelled alone so far.. But this would be a good start !!!

Looking forward for more of these opportunities...

First Business Trip to Singapore

2008-09-18T22:48:00.005+08:00

16th Sep'08

That day marks the first day that I went on a short business trip to Singapore! Its upon my boss's request that we should meet up and discuss on our (mine and Janet-> my mgr) roles. As we've finally been accepted as the GCS, regional team, therefore we need to expand our roles. Before that, our headcount, payroll and all other stuff were based in MY. But we're treated like a step child where most of the things we're left out of the crowd.

Finally !!!! It's really great to be part of the big family :)
And I can see that my career path is being layout nicely and slowly blooming.. after 5 hard years.

From a nobody to someone who can be flying !! muahahahah LOL

And yeah, pardon me for being so "Sua ku" (mountain tortoise) but it was my first time in SQ flight and yes I totally agree it's better than MAS...

Boarding Pass ~ we've checked in online so we can take our own sweet time :P

On the plane with passengers buzy putting up their bags/luggage

Silly me taking pictures like nobody's business and with Janet chuckling away at my silly acts

SQ meal :)

Walking out the terminal

Hmm I couldn't recall what this called but its expansive and need to booked online :)

Our DHL hot air balloon.. We can ride on it for about SGD 36 ~i think ^_^

And I also forgot about the name of this street.. Sigh if u know me well you should know what distracts me away.. **hint hint.. did u see Mazda RX8 there in the picture ROFL..

On the plane departing for PEN.. ** sob sob.. did u notice I'm on window seat again hahahaha

On my way home.. leaving Singapore :(

Langkawi trip on 6th - 8th Sep'08

2008-09-14T21:01:00.014+08:00

My first Langkawi trip..

Not bad though... I'll let the photos speak for themselves..

I'm lost of words... due to the stupidity of Malaysian rulers and their political dramas..
Sigh

At Penang airport departure hall.

Fly using Firefly.

Langkawi from sky view

Arrival at Langkawi Int'l Airport

Our first place ~ Thai restaurant to fill our hungry stomach.

Opening ceremony wouldn't be complete with table full of liquors and ciggies.

Mine ~ Long island tea and apple Menthol ciggy

Our hotel room ~ Bayview

Most important thing.. the toilet.. **Nice haha

Me ~ cam-whoring.

Morning view from our hotel room

Everyone's getting ready for the tour

1. Gallery Perdana

Dolls dressed in native Mongolian costume

2. At the hot spring but was in the midst of renovation..

3. Towards the beach :)

** We're here in Langkawi !!!!

Took a boat cruise for the mangrove tour, eagle feeding, fish feeding, bat cave.. n etc

See the bats are hanging on top ??

Me with the stones ~LOL

Bat Cave entrance..

Going into a very small section of the cave that need u to bend to low!

Still in the Bat Cave

Pretty ladies....

** Fish.. looks like puffy fish but it has a hard texture and skin.. not slimy type..

Feeding the stingrays.

The stingrays are very tame and seek for attention and loves affection ^_^

Way back to shore ~ We had a adventurous trip back with big waves and bumpy ride

2nd Day trip - stopped at one of the petrol station which had a very stunning view of the port.

So beautiful !!!

Pathway to Langkawi Cable Car

** Tada ! We arrived but didn't managed to get a ride due to the bad weather! :(

** Change destination to this place! (Gawd knows what this place called) Faints

Us posing as eagles... **Slaps forehead! so hilarious.

Finally we had no where to go so we opt for spa.. DONT COME HERE SUCKS LIKE HELL

Last meal before going to the airport.

The first and the last restaurant for our trip here ^_^

At the airport.

Checking in for our flight back to PEN :(

Diablo III

2008-08-31T01:43:00.002+08:00

YEAY !!!! Blizzard has promised that Diablo III is going to be out in the markets soon :)
Can't wait to get my hands on them and spent endless nights and days playing it....

QUICK !!!! Make it quick!! I wanna get one :)

My 2008 New Year Resolution.

2008-08-31T01:20:00.004+08:00

30th August 2008.

Today marks the 2nd last day of August 2008. I worked half day today and "officially" got my company laptop home..
I should be excited and I've always felt happy carrying "company laptop".. boost your ego and somewhat in good position to carry one..you know.. it's not like everyone get to use one in my company.
But on the contarary I felt pressured at the same time.
I don't know what to expect and how to carry on working with a laptop (not that I'm an idiot! I know how to use one for entertainment..) but not in office and home for work purposes.. and my boss's expectation :(
Nothing impressive... its second hand one... haha... very basic and can't do much stuff as I'm using the company's network.
Sigh... I'm brain dead now.. and I hv to cut my bloody nails ! urgh!

It's freaking 1.23 am in the damn morning and I promised my dad I would joined him tomorrow for a morning walk at the Botonical Gardens... and I'm still typing away and not sleeping yet..
I'm gonna looked like a cat being drag into something tomorrow.. awfull. hehe

While browsing the net, I came across my friendster blog and read on my 2008 New Year Resolution..

Here goes :

1) ----> A new car... (yeah baby I'm car freak !!! I lurve cars!!! Esp Mazda and Mitsubishi .ehm... I lurve the new Civic too ;P) But Im only able to affort maybe a VIos or Honda City ... (latest to realize by end of 2008).. that alone also having me coughing out blood.. but Im ready to sacrifice to get it!!!!
2) -----> A vacation in either ( Taiwan / Hong Kong / Korea /Australia).. that's the best I can do..(though I would love to to Japan and also European countries )

First of all, the first one... I'm not able to buy one yet... looking at the rate of my spending... nope nope.. but I'm eyeing Vios type J.. not sure automatic or manual ??

Secondly, Vacation!!! ahhh.... now that's the main reason I can't get my car ^_^

I'm going Langkawi in a week's time.. flying and staying 2 nights and 3 days of vacation with close frens :) It's going to be so much fun and CRAZY... I cant' imagine..

In another 2 months time, I'm off to Perth on November.. spending almost 2 weeks at my aunt place...

And the final vacation plan is also in another 2 months time from November... It will be Manila, Philippines :) Boy! what make me agreed to joined those gals going there :) Anyway I pray and hope that it will be peaceful during our trip.. no riots nor weather havoc..

So u can see now that why I'm broke and I can't afford to realise my #1 2008 New Year Resolution..

Well, I had more for 2009.. I'll try to go Taiwan & Korea in 2 years time and the last and the most desired vacation : HOKAIDO , JAPAN !!!! T_T

when la I can realize those dreams.... ????

Vampire Knight~ anime

2008-08-18T19:05:00.004+08:00

Another anime series that had me hooked up with my laptop always and keeping up with every new episode uploaded. Great plot, nice characters and superb OST!
As usual below details are taken from Wikipedia:-

Written by: Matsuri Hino

Plot:

Yuki's earliest memory is of a snowy night in winter, when she was attacked by one vampire and was saved by another, Kaname Kuran. Ten years later, Yuki Cross, the adopted daughter of the headmaster of Cross Academy, has grown up and become a "prefect" (also known as a guardian) for the school with two purposes: to protect the Day class students (humans) from the Night class students (vampires) and to protect the true identity of the Night class students from being discovered by the Day class students. Her fellow guardian, Zero Kiryu, a childhood companion whose parents were killed by a pureblood vampire, is now determined to kill them all and refuses to trust them. Through a cruel twist of fate, Zero becomes a vampire himself, having been bitten by a pureblood vampire four years before, Shizuka Hiou. Kaname, Yuki's savior, leads the group of Night class, with the help of Takuma Ichijo (the vice president).

There are total of 13 episodes that have been aired and the second season to Air in Japan in October 2008... Awww still long time to wait.. :(

From left to right: Zero, Yuki & Kaname

Yuki & Kaname

Zero & Yuki

My Favourite character ! Zero ^_^

Chinese Tarrot Card Reading.

2008-08-18T18:50:00.002+08:00

I just had my reading done by an elderly aunty.. also a fren of grandma last last Saturday:

Here are the results:

Career, no issues... some times very free & at times busy like hell.. but I like it :P
Relationship:

Aunty *A: r u in a relationship now ??

Me *J: Nope. broke off half yr ago.

A: Good ! the first one wasn't meant to be with you... no good.. too much argument! No worries, your new one is approaching .. very Good and polite man! He's not from Penang. But he'll give you "Xin Fu!"....

J: Wah.... too happy till speechless..

A: Yours hv nothing much to lookout for.. Every thing is fine for you. :)

HAHAHAHA I was so damn happy.. and I only had someone on my mine when she mentioned that the guy is not from Penang.. But then again... leave it to the hands of Fate!

DHL Volunteer Day @ 17th Aug '08

2008-08-18T18:24:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was DHL PEN's Volunteer Day. Its an event happening simultaneously throughout the world branches. Or that's what I believe as my Philippines & Vietnam team hv done it earlier.

We were separated into 2 groups, one in charge of indoor - cleaning, painting and stuff and another group were to take the kids to an outdoor activity.

I was in the outdoor group and our venue was Tropical Spice Garden in Batu Feringhi. We need to gather at the KLAS airport at 8am. Julia came to pick me up from my home. ^_^

Bus left the airport approx 9.30 ++ and we arrived at the Pure Lotus Bodhi home around 10am.

At the home, each volunteer were assign with a kid to guide and look out during the trip in TSG.

The very instant all the kids lined up, I saw a very cute kid about 5 yrs old which i would like to pick, however we're not supposed to do that due to volunteer work.

Instead, the kids will choose you. I end up with an 8 yr old gal.. Yes ! she choose me almost immediately.

We had chemistry throughout.. we chat, played and took pictures together.

I'm lucky enough as other kids were pretty shy and kept quiet throughout the drive from the home to the TSG. Mine was chatting away.. so obviously she's secured and happy with me :)

But till the end of the event, I was dead tired! Qing Qing is a very hyper active gal and she's the first to run to anything or place that interest her. And me having a hard time to catch up and dead worried about her steps (the route are not smooth, almost like jungle trekking)

She had her sister with her also.. Ying Ying!

I really love to post her pictures but we're were warned not to take and distribute the kids photos.. So too bad :(

All in all, my first time caring for a child went extremely well ! which made me proud hahahaha.

Because in the past, whenever I approach any kid, he or she would cry and that made me afraid of kids..

But then again, I would really think twice in having kids ! :D

here's just a snapshot of the kids: from left > the cute kid i like, Ying Ying & Qing Qing

** no direct photos are allowed but sideways is okay :P

I'm so lazy..

2008-07-31T21:46:00.001+08:00

Dont' know what the hell happened to me..
I'm so damn lazy nowadays........
So fast .. its August...sigh

Howl's Moving Castle @ Hauru no Ugoku Shiro

2008-07-22T20:23:00.004+08:00

This is one of the anime I watched last Sunday with my sister.
Highly reconmended.. :)
Below are the synopsys taken from Wikipedia

Plot:
The film starts off with the protagonist of Howl’s Moving Castle, Sophie, a timid and unsure 18-year-old girl who works in her late father's hat shop. She has a chance encounter with the mysterious wizard Howl, who rescues her from some menacing soldiers. However, by doing so, Howl brings Sophie to the attention of the Witch of the Waste, who visits Sophie and puts a curse on her, transforming her into a 90-year old woman. Unable to tell anyone of the curse, she sets off on her journey to the Waste, to beg Howl to lift the curse. On the way she meets a magically animated scarecrow whom she names Turnip Head. Together they find Howl's moving castle.

Howl's moving castle **moved by Calcifer

Other casts: Heen the dog, Markl & Turnip Head which is the Crown Prince Justin.

Howl & Sophie

For those who wants to know the details of the event.. continue reading.. if not, pls stop or it will kill the movie :P (but I like to write it down and keep track of all my anime that I've watched)

Events:

Inside the castle, Sophie comes across a fire demon, Calcifer, with whom she makes a deal: He will change Sophie back to her normal age if she can break the contract that binds Calcifer and Howl together. "Grandma" Sophie also meets Markl, Howl's young apprentice; Howl himself appears soon after. Sophie hides her true identity and claims to be a cleaning lady hired by Calcifer to maintain the castle. (However, Howl, like Calcifer, has been able to 'see through' the spell all along.)

Sophie discovers that the front door of the moving castle is magical, allowing transport to four different destinations. She also begins to see Howl's true nature. He shows this when Sophie messes with his potions in the bathroom, accidentally causing his hair to turn black. Howl throws a tantrum and calls on the Spirits of Darkness.

Time passes, and Howl receives summons from both Porthaven as Wizard Jenkins and Kingsbury as Wizard Pendragon to fight for the King. A war is being fought over the missing Crown Prince Justin. Howl suspects the Kingsbury summons is a trap set by Madame Suliman, Kingsbury's head sorceress and Howl's old mentor. Too cowardly to confront her himself, Howl convinces Sophie to speak to Suliman by posing as his mother, "Mrs. Pendragon."

Sophie runs into the Witch of the Waste while going to the royal castle. In the castle, the Witch of the Waste is captured by Suliman's stronger magic, stripped of her powers, and shrunken into a helpless old lady. Suliman then confronts "Mrs. Pendragon" and demands that Howl become a war magician. Howl comes to her rescue disguised as the King of Ingary, but Suliman sees through his disguise. They escape on a flying machine along with Heen, Suliman's asthmatic errand dog, and the now-helpless Witch of the Waste. Howl stays behind, fighting off the chasing soldiers, while Sophie goes ahead, flying back to the castle. Suliman, however, learns of Sophie's identity. Howl returns in a large birdlike form later that night and Sophie wakes up as her young self again. She confesses her love to him and tells him she wants to help him break his curse. Howl rejects her and flies away. Sophie wakes up to find it was all a dream.

Howl transforms the castle into a larger and more beautiful version of itself as a present for Sophie. Meanwhile, the self-confidence she has gained, along with her developing affection towards Howl, has begun to reverse Sophie's curse, returning her gradually to her true age.
Madame Suliman attempts to track Howl down at the hat shop. Howl flies off to defend them; however, each time he transforms into a large birdlike creature to defend himself and his friends, it becomes increasingly difficult for him to revert to human form.

Sophie receives a surprise visit from her mother Honey, sharing a brief but emotional reunion. Honey, secretly blackmailed by Madam Suliman, leaves a small bag which turns out to be a spy bug. The Witch of the Waste destroys it by feeding it to Calcifer, but it severely weakens him as a result.

Eventually, Suliman's henchmen swarm the hat shop, forcing Howl and Sophie to retreat. Howl transforms into the bird creature to draw the enemies away, while Sophie moves the castle back to the Wastes. Sophie convinces Calcifer to rescue Howl, but in his weakened state, Calcifer is unable to move the entire castle. Sophie removes Calcifer from his hearth, to reduce the size of the house, but then returns him and uses her own hair as fuel. However, the Witch spies Howl's heart in the ashes — the one thing she had been seeking for ages — and greedily grabs it. The heart sets her aflame, forcing Sophie to throw a bucket of water on her and Calcifer. Calcifer is reduced to a small flame that is unable to control the castle. The castle breaks down even further and they are all thrown off a cliff.

Sophie cries for Howl, thinking he is dead, but then in the rubble, she finds the magical castle portal. She enters to find herself transported into Howl's childhood. She learns of the relationship between Howl and Calcifer, and discovers why Howl is unable to truly love anyone. She returns to the present to find Howl outside the door. Howl is in bird creature form, badly injured and bleeding, but is able to take them back to their friends.

Sophie, Howl and Heen land on the remnants of the castle, and Howl falls unconscious as he transforms back into human shape. Sophie convinces the Witch to give Howl's heart back to him and pushes it into Howl's chest. Calcifer emerges in his true form and shoots off. Without Calcifer powering it, the remnants of the castle give way. Turnip Head sacrifices himself to stop the castle from sliding off a cliff and Sophie thanks him by giving him a kiss. Turnip Head then turns into Crown Prince Justin, who had been transformed by a spell that could only be broken by a kiss by his true love, Sophie. However, when Howl wakes up, Sophie shows she is really in love with Howl, which breaks her own curse. Crown Prince Justin, resigned, goes back to tell his king to stop the meaningless war. Calcifer returns and decides to stay even though his contract with Howl was broken.

Heen reports all this to Madame Suliman back in Kingsbury via her crystal ball; with Prince Justin rescued, there is no reason to continue the war. The film ends with Sophie, Howl, the Witch of the Waste, Calcifer, Markl, and Heen traveling in the newly-rebuilt castle — which now flies (a reference to the book's sequel, Castle in the Air).

Avoiding a disaster!

2008-07-18T20:57:00.003+08:00

18th July 2008

This is a personal ranting and I hope I can keep it as discreet as possible.
I hv gotten to know someone from my work place ... We wasn't in talking terms as we're both from a different division.
Until the whole level 2 staff was relocated to another building. We started with our "HI" when we crossed each other as he and I was sitting very far ... from one end to another.
Conversations started when he got to know that I frequent the pubs..and we hv regular comments like "hey u should call me as I was there the other night" and that's how he got my mobile number..
Things was nothing suspecting ...and it was normal until one day...
He asked me out for movie.. and he insisted to pick me up from my place..
I said no but until the movie day.. he was very persistant... so I gave in..

After that movie... things are getting more and more awkward and I asked my fren...

Is this normal ?
Does guy and gal fren do this ?
Why am I being paranoid?
Am I over thinking ?

And after discussing these with my close frens and my boss ** hahaha

Its clear..

I know i can always trust my instinct.. I know that definitely this guy is moving his steps on me...That's when I tried to review back on all his doings that are becoming more and more convincing and the picture was coming clearer..

He commented on how beautiful I was in certain clothing
Sms me once in a while
call me once in a while
Second attempt to date me out
I caught him looking at me many times in the office
Even keeps track of how many times I went to the rooftop for my ciggy break!

And during my training since yesterday, I made many effort to avoid eye contact and kept myself buzy...

I hang on to one of my Malay buddy
Keep in the company with his boss
Never be alone
Avoided eye contact

Somehow, this pisses me off again when this happened during the training:

whenever there's any activity.. he would pass the ball / turn to me
even commented my normal blouse was nice to a gal
tried to follow me when I was going home but as planned.. this was a trap to make him move first.

I'm feeling so annoyed and frustrated.. Angry as I cannot accept a guy which I don't have any feelings or "click" with him.. Don't get me wrong.. I can be friends but when you show aggressive movement.. That does it.. and once you pulled the trigger.. there's no turning back.. I can't even be normal friends with you anymore.. instead.. you're just as annoying as the mosquito that I wanna kill!

Friend so ask me to try out ... and give a chance since I'm now single..

Cut it short! I prefer single and die single than being with him ^_^

He's just not my type..

I don't like guys same age as me.. preferably older than me 3 years old
I prefer Chinese guy..(this is pure I*ndian) ** Sorry just a personal preference
I don't mind mixed parentage and ones that are fairer.
NOt Muslim.. coz I'm a Chatolic,... so its difficult and conflicting.
I don't like control freak ! Even told me to stop smoking.. what the hell ? You're not anybody to me yet and u want to control me? Forget it. I only change for the one I love!

Hate the feeling of someone monitoring me and all my movements.

Fuhh... Finally I'm able to rant all of this stuff.. as I'm really frustrated looking at him.

Being loved should be nice and the feeling of having someone to care and like you should be heaven..but not this.. it's torturing and felt like a stalker in my life.

I thought of smoking more to make him dislike me... but on the other side... I have someone I like.. so I can't be doing too damaging stuff to myself...

Why I'm so chicken when others can be so bold and brave in expressing themselves ??

Should I make some movement ?? I don't know seriously...

Sigh T_T

Karen's visit in Penang..

2008-07-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

I'm really sleepy now and not wearing my specs.. will upload more.
Really had fun last weekend ~ 12th July 2008.
Will write more when I can...

Shocking thing to see in the morning

2008-07-16T22:48:00.003+08:00

I have a habit of drinking a glass of water after I wake up..
And this is what I found one of the morning...
Shocked for about few minutes trying to figure out how to pour my water..
*** Just burst into a laughter and walked to my mum.."MA... what 's this ?? "

Super P*ssed at the Federal Govt!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-27T13:16:00.006+08:00

No money ?? cut petrol subsidies... then...where the hell that RM30BILLION come from ??

And apart from all that development plans, see what that "stupid a****** face" (*#*$&*%^&%*%$$*.. super super duper hate his f**king face!!!!!) allocated for Penang ??

Yeah.. You wanna punish us, penangnites ??? FORGET IT !!!!! We can still live with what we have.. Thanks to our kind CM :)

P/s : Sorry for indecent language coz I'm super p!sssed.. and couldn't hold myself back and wrote this post in office :P ' blek ....

Seared Honey Ham

2008-06-24T22:55:00.004+08:00

** Sorry the photo doesn't looked nice coz we were anxious to dish it out and try it :D

Ingredients:

5 pcs pig's cubed hand (meat from upper foreleg).. hmmm.. i just get the softer part

Condiments:

1 & 1/2 Tbsp Char Siew Sauce,
1 Tbsp soy sauce
1 Tbsp oyster sauce
1 Tbsp Chinese cooking wine
1 tsp of sesame oil
2 tsp of sugar
2 tsp of honey
1/4 tsp meat tenderizer
2 Tbsp of water
1/4 tsp dark soy sauce.

Method:

Slice meat into round shape and loosen with mallet. (a kind of kitchen hammer I called it ^_^)
Marinate the meat with condiments for 30 minutes or best leave it overnight.
Heat some oil in non-stick pan, sear the meat until both side turns brown. Dish out and arrange in plate.
Lastly, bring the rest of the marinating sauce to boil and pour it over the meat to serve.

This is the Char Siu Sauce from Lee Kum Kee

Oh.. and last but not least, I think we forgot about the sauce in above pics muhahahahah

Our Cousin from Australia

2008-06-24T22:41:00.005+08:00

Stephanie :)
Steph's fiancee', Esa

Lovely couple! ~ wedding on Nov 23rd, 2008 Perth

Sunday dinner @ home

2008-06-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

With the increased price of food and everything, we've stop going out for meals nowadays.. That's why we prefer home cooked meal.. Simple, delicious and save alot of $$ :)

** starting from the top clockwise: Kimchi soup, blanched "Sawi" with garlic oil, Seared Honey ham, Hard boiled egg, Ikan billis with tomato and chili paste.

Another post about my Babe Darling!

2008-06-24T22:18:00.005+08:00

Enjoy her funny expressions :)

Till the end of the day.. It's all about this ball ! hahaha :)

Well sort of her precious.

Father's Day Meal :)

2008-06-24T21:45:00.004+08:00

I think it's kinda late that I update bout this post..
But we're the type of family that would celebrate this occasion.
WE did the same for our father this year..
Me gettin him his yearly stock of his handkerchiefs...
And his favourite dishes for a wholesome meal :)

Dad was very happy to get his gift and the table of food that we prepare..
But with a disappointment voice:

"U gals still missing something... Don't u know what i really wanted ?? How could you??"
"Huh?? U wanted flat screen tv ar ?? Pa.. that is way too expansive to us still.." I said.
"Ah bor then ??" sis asked

"My wish is simple... I wanted DURIAN!! NICE one :)"

LOL.. everyone laughed.. yeah how could we forget that ???

Seaweed soup with fish ball

Fried fish with preserved soybean paste.

Fried Dorry Fillet. for me :)

Spinach with dried shrimp and garlic

Father's favourite butter cake. I bake it specially for him with Golden Churn butter..$9 per block... so expansive now :(

Durian..Anyone ??

2008-06-11T22:30:00.003+08:00

Durian is my favourite!!! but too bad after eating, my mum would freak out everytime I go near her :(

Yeah.. that's my babe eating durian and I would always shout and ran away whenever she wants to cuddle after eating durian... always makes her stunned hehehehhe.

Yummy.. ever seen a dog who eat durian ?

Awww.. look how beautiful she is ?? I'm so proud of her.. 3 year old Labrador Retriever

Dermalogica products..

2008-06-11T22:26:00.003+08:00

YO ~! I bought 2 additional stuff for my faceeeee....

Antioxidant Hydramist - $179.00
Overnight Clearing gel - $ 195.00

Nearly 400 gone.... :(

Sad reality ..Inflation coming!

2008-06-09T22:53:00.003+08:00

Petrol cost 40% more!

With the crazy raise of petrol by the govt....

need to add extra 40% of money each time I fill up the fuel
raising cost of food ! which a necessity.
a raise of only 5% on my salary.
Cost of flour doubled.
Cost of butter doubled...

U tell me... how to change lifestyle ??

This is all chain reaction, you can't even control the prices of the controlled items.. how can you enforce the others not to raise prices when everything is going to cost more with the fuel increase.

We're looking at basic needs here and this is a harsh impact on medium to lower income group. And we even had calculated that an average earner of a family household nowadays couldn't even survive with $6K per household income. What more for the child ??

With this the future economy for Malaysia is going down the drain, there will be less spending and hence, economy won't grow!!!

And another part of the comment, Singapore and Thailand's petrol cost higher..

Hello??? Singapore has the best public transport and in Thailand, the tax on imported cars are very low...

Here ?? Public transport ?? ** faints... Tax on imported Cars ** Double faints...!
People!!! You're a leader of the country. STOP making a fool out of yourself to say such things and analyze first before making such statement!

Being a Malaysian, sometimes.. I'm afraid to say that I'm ashamed to be part of it. Sorry to say but after Dr Mahathir, I couldn't respect any of the rulers now in this country!

Big disappointment! I'm sure you're going to loose further in the next elections!

So do you still want us to Change lifestyle ??

Dukbokki ~ Spicy Rice Cake.

2008-06-09T22:34:00.005+08:00

With the extra glutinous flour.. and addition to my craze over Korean food,
Again I experiment with yet another superb recipe from Maangchi.
Instead of getting the tube rice cake, (which is not available in Penang),
I followed the recipe from Gyung Dan to make the fresh one for this recipe.

Ingredients for hot spicy ddukbokkie:
1 pkg of rice cake for ddukbokkie,
2 TBS hot pepper paste,
1 TBS sugar, 4 cups of water,
7 dried anchovies,
3 or 4 stems of green onions.

Method:

Separate the tubes of rice cake into individual pieces.
In a pan, pour 4 cups of water and add 7 dried anchovies after removing their heads and intestines.
Boil the water for 10 minutes over medium heat.
Remove the anchovies and add the rice cakes, 2 TBS of hotpepper paste, 1 TBS sugar, and 1 TBS of hotpepper flakes (optional).
Stir it constantly.
Cut 7 green onions into 5 cm long pieces, and add them to the pot.
Keep stirring until the sauce is thick and the rice cake is shiny.
Transfer it to a plate and serve!

Taken from Maangchi again hehe ^_^

Mum said it looked like big worms.. seriously I should change the shape...:(

Gyung Dan ~ from Maangchi

2008-06-09T22:11:00.005+08:00

I've sudden cravings for rice cake so decided to grab few packets of glutinous rice flour (which is known as sweet rice flour).
Followed exactly how Maangchi does it...

My one and only favourite "Guru" for all my korean dish experiments :)Muahahhahah Maangchi is the best!!!!

Tada !!! hehhe not so nice but its edible.. good and has a chewy texture :)
And also I didn't manage to get the sagebrush powder & soybean powder, I substitute with green tea powder that is mixed with plain flour and some icing sugar..

Click below for the complete recipe and directions !
Rice Cake (Gyung Dan) by Maagchi.

Super Duper Expansive Facial!!!

2008-05-26T23:37:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, while lazy'ing around the house, suddenly Jac called..

Jac: Woi, wat u doing ?
Me: huh.. just woke up, wash clothes, later going to grandma's house loh
Jac: Eh u want ar ?? I give you facial voucher worth 500!
Me: HAR ??? why u not using it ?
Jac: I got my own course and it wouldn't be appropriate to mix products..
Me: Where ??
Jac: U want ar I booked the appointment.. It's in QBmall.
Me: Err okay.. any catch or need to go thru any pursuading to buy things ar ?
Jac: Don't know,., no lah... its service voucher.. Come lah ! I go with you..

Okay.. so I end up at QB mall @ Aster spring.. and after a face mapping..
I was advised to take the special facial treatment that cost $398.. and extra eye bag treatment that cost about 100++... In the end the whole package cost 554!
So I paid the extra $54.. okay lah.. I only paid such low cost for such an expansive facial !

THANK YOU JAC !! U really make my day..
It's really good leh.. I'm going back !
But for the basic wan lah..Siao!! u think I veli rich ar ??
Dermalogica stuff.. really works! really expansive @_@"

2008-05-26T23:20:00.003+08:00

This poem speaks the true me.. my own feelings...
And that everything I once hold very dear to me was snatched away...
I thought I couldn't see anymore sunlight... but I was wrong...

Enjoy.. Taken when I was blog hopping.. I can't recall her name but her blog was "Italian Wife 101".. Thank you for the lovely poem..

I see her.
She was happy,
her face was lighting with smiles that came right from the heart.
She sees the sun as a new day, another day that she couldn't ask for more.
Her eyes sparkle of that with so much love brimming,
She felt like the luckiest girl on earth,

She feels like she could live like this forever, just the simplicity,
Of that girl being in love with the world,
With everything around her,
The flowers seem to bloom in winter,
Her heart never cease to warm even under the cruel drops.
She wants to stay that way forever,
She skips and hops in every step,
She's in love,
And she never wants to be out of that anymore,
Everything seemed perfect,She had her life.
She thought she had everything.

I see her now.
She's like a flower withering to die in the bright summer,
She hides herself from the sunshine that once made her day so bright,
She wants to just be alone all by herself for now,
She hates everything that use to remind her of her happy days,
She knows that she's not going to make it,
Everything she had she don't want it back,

The storm that came and went,
Rooting whatever left of her leaving her weaker and weaker by the time,
leaving her to days of rain, and no sun,
then turning the weather around,
expecting her to full-bloom again.
She feels her leaves falling, her roots dying,
She has no more will to see that red-tinge she once was so full of,
She turns into a morseful black,
Her petals show of marks,
left by all the torn and rattle in the storm,
The storm that left her both
wondering to live or to die.
She just wants to lie down now,
The snow will cover her,
She will be put to rest,
Let the new flowers bloom again,
From her spot she wants for the sake of her,
If she ever reborns, as herself or as someone else,
So wants to bask in that light again she knows exist.
She knows it exist, and she knows that the next time around,
it will be better.

She will be treated well,
She will not die on herself.
Never again the same storm,
But she believes fate will decide for her,
For now, she just wants to rest.
And may she rest in peace.

My love,

my flower,

My heart

Travelling Plans !!! Perth - NOV & Manila - JAN'09

2008-05-26T23:03:00.003+08:00

ME !! ME!! That's right. You read correctly..
Finally Jane is going travelling.... YUHOO BABY I'm super excited!!!

PERTH - 12 th Nov - 20th Nov'08

MANILA - 15th Jan - 18th Jan'09..

Hahahhahaha

May 26th, 2008

2008-05-26T21:52:00.002+08:00

Wow, it's been so many weeks since i last login.. many stuff happened..

- Grandma admitted to hospital on Mother's Day
- Work was hell... It is still hell for me now.
- 2 good news to look forward..
- Less of cooking experiments.. high cost ** blek..
- Chasing after "Fated to love you" episode by episode every Monday
- Following up on "Vampire Knight"

But I made sushis.. and prune cake upon my mum's request though :)

Mother's Day 2008

2008-05-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

May 11th, 2008.

Grandma admitted to Loh Guan Lye yesterday due to her leg was swollen..
And this was not the first time as this also happened last week..
So we didn't have any plans for mother's day as mum went to hospital to accompany grandma.
The air was rather gloomy.. Everyone was dead worried... grandma kept forgetting stuff and she's 80 years old.

So today we didn't go to Sunday mass too..and I slept till 9am.
After waking up, I went straight to mum's room to search for a cake recipe to make..
So I stumble upon the Prune cake.. hmmm ** good , nutritious... :)
Yup the right selection.

Then when sis woke up later on, she suggested that we go to Jusco and buy some stuff to cook dinner for mum...
All food prices had hike up too much and a good dinner is hard to find nowadays as the cost of living had been increasing...
And the last time we tried to have a good dinner went awry as the food was no longer good and it was damn pricey!
So we agree on cooking for mum ourselves.

Went to Jusco at approx 1pm.. came back at 4pm..
Got ourselves... dory fish, rosemary, apples, strawberries, vege, fish roe & etc...

After whipping and spinning in the kitchen from 4pm till 9.30 pm.. we make fantastic dishes..
Mum also came home late.. and she's dead tired.. but after seeing the dishes we made just for her today was enough to make her cry ... hahahahha

I only managed to take a pic of the cake I bake...
Nice ?? hahahha I even cut out the wordings ... and make the wordings .
Fuh... me too dead tired...
Will post the rest of the pictures later...
** Baked chicken, Dory fish baked with cheese, sushi & spinach soup.. and dessert... cake and champagne :)

Just for mum:
Mum, I love you so much ... my thanks and things I do aren't enough to repay everything you did for me :)
I'm really grateful and thank God for giving me such great mum!

Happy Mother's day , Mummy

Trip to the dentist..O_0

2008-05-08T22:52:00.003+08:00

After my trip to the dentist, mum and I went home... both got MC!! hehe
Both also hungry so I cooked pasta :)
And her in returned, cooked my favourite dish.. curry kapitan and "Meng Kuang Char"

Complete meal, with barley as dessert YUmmy :D

My Wilton Deco class.

2008-05-08T22:30:00.003+08:00

Well, this went on last Saturday in a small shop in Farlim...

Arrived approx 9am.. Class started around 9.45am with a Canadian instructor..Rosalind Chan..

Very nice lady and I had alot of fun...*** I love her so much :D

And alot of back sore and leg pain after standing and bending throughout the class till 7pm!

Look at my result below :)

This was my final result.. too bad i didn't took the picture there and then... as the result of transporting this home... my "clown" decided to commit suicide.... *** boo hoo..

The clown was supposed to be sitting on the edge of the cake until he 'slipped" off the edge..

My almost perfedt roses, leaves, stars and clouds :)

Nice ??

My certificate :P

Banana Cupcake

2008-04-29T22:14:00.002+08:00

YEAY ~! Another baking frenzie....
Made banana cupcakes with banana mousse filling and top with cheese frosting
Hahahha again.. I altered the recipe from 2 books into one cupcake...
Don't ask me how .. as I don't really remember how I did it.. *** faints...

Nice ??

Kimchi again ^_^

2008-04-29T21:56:00.004+08:00

The last time I made kimchi, I didn't took any photos..
A lil'l bit of how the process goes can be found in my previous post here
Here it is....

Ingredients that need to be blended into puree

Spring onions, carrot and daikon cut into thin strips

Soaked China Cabbage in salt water ~ at least 4 hours

Add the dried chillies, pureed ginger, red chillies, garlic, onion into the starch.

Mixed the spring onions, carrots and daikon into the paste evenly and coat into the cabbages

Finished product~ keep the kimchi in a glass bottle and let it ferment for at least 24 hours.

Sushi !!!!

2008-04-29T21:42:00.004+08:00

I made some sushi again last Saturday hehehehhe ...
Trying to master the skill of rolling the sushi .. but then again, it's not perfect yet :P

Ingredients:
1 cup of Japanese short grain rice, soaked in water until the rice turned white.
Add in 1 cup of water and cook in rice cooker.

When the rice is cooked, let it cooled down abit before adding the sushi powdered vinegar, and mixed evenly.. ** faning in between so your rice will be shining hehehe..

If you don't have any powdered vinegar, you can substitute with rice vinegar & sugar. (cooked in low heat till the sugar dissolved and cooled before mix it with the rice

Then add in any ingredient you like.. example: crabstick, cucumber, egg(tamago) or even tuna flakes :)

Tada ~!

Booo hooo

2008-04-24T20:46:00.002+08:00

24th April 2008

I finally received the highly anticipated bonus of the year..

And its miserable pathetic peanut size amount made me cry and had my aunty visit me almost
immediately after checking my bank account on Maybank2U....

And sky cried for me too...

Sigh.. Im going to have a hard time saving enough money to Australia...

Imagine... a big bomb drop from 4mths to 1.5 mths nia...

I loose more than 5 K

*** sob sob sob...

Red Bean & Green Tea Mousse Cake

2008-04-24T00:44:00.005+08:00

23rd April 2008 @ 12.50 am

Okay, I got hold of myself now.. guess I'm pms'ing .. hehehe paiseh !

Yup.. I was saying I tried making mousse cake for the first time...

Saw this when I bought the recipe book earlier but dare not attempt as I've never handle mousse cake, whipped cream and double layer cake thingy.. pretty scary..

But I did it ! Though there were hiccups along the way.. but I manage it..

Boy! I've been thinking if I'm such an idiot in these stuff .. how am I to survive in the deco class ??

Never mind that... I'll worry when the time comes... What the hell the teacher is there for ??

And what the hell I'm paying for the class ?? Of course to teach me lor.. hehehe

Here is the recipe :

Green Tea Sponge cake

6 eggs
110g caster sugar
90g low protein flour ** I don't know what's that so I just substitute with cake flour.
1/8 tsp baking powder
1/8 tsp salt , 1tbsp cake emulsifier

1 tbsp green tea powder, mixed with 5 tbsp of hot water
55 g corn oil

Green Tea Mousse

1 1/2 tsp gelatin powder, mixed with 1 1/2 tbsp hot water and double boil till dissolved
1/2 tbsp of green tea powder, mixed with 3 tbsp hot water and stir till dissolved.
150 g non dairy whipping cream
1/2 can sweetened kidney bean, drained

For Garnishing:

100 g non dairy whipping cream
Cut out some green tea sponge cake, baked at 160'c for 10 mins or until dry, removed and ground till very fine

Method:

Green Tea Sponge Cake

Beat A until light and fluffy. Add in B, beat until thick and fluffy. Add in corn oil and mix well. Pour mixture into 2 lined and greased square baking tins (22cm x 22cm x 4 cm) and baked at a pre-heated oven at 180'c for 15-20 mins. Remove and leave to cool.

Green Tea Mousse

Whip non dairy whipping cream until soft peak is formed. Add in diluted gelatin, green tea mixture and mix well.
Spread green tea mousse onto a piece of green tea sponge cake. Sprinkle kidney beans on top and cover with another piece of green tea sponge cake.
Whip non dairy whipping cream until white and stiff. Spread over the cake surface and sprinkle with ground green tea sponge cake powder.
Chill for 2 hours.

Finished product ~!

Tears flowing down again...

2008-04-24T00:13:00.003+08:00

I didn't want to cry anymore..

But I can't help it when I was downloading my cake photos;
That's when I saw his photo... among the other photos..
Photos that was taken when we're at his hometown in Pangkor Island...
It was the best place for vacation.. One that I always look forward going..
One that I had all those sweet memories....

All nothing more but memories that I'm taking along with me....

Don't think I can continue posting my success story of cake making just now...

I love this song ! Elisa - Eppure Sentire

2008-04-22T22:49:00.004+08:00

"EPPURE SENTIRE"

One step away
from all I want
and I know it's all here
afraid to move
afraid to choose
afraid of my own fear

of times when I may not be strong
places where I may not belong

but I hold onto this feeling
that stands above all feelings
tellin' me not to let go
and I live on
this feeling
the greatest of all feelings
tellin' me not to grow cold

please help me get through
and let me in you

so I hold onto this feeling
that stands above all feelings
tellin' me not to let go
and I live on
this feeling
the greatest of all feelings
tellin' me not to grow cold

please help me get through
and let me in you

please help me get through
and let me in you

Everyone likes my cupcakes !

2008-04-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

Hahahahaha well, what I have to say ?? Everyone loves it! I'm so proud..
Though I was extremely tired throughout the weekend but the experience is all worth while...
My sushi ?? Well, for first timers.. it suck.. the rice had too much water and it turned out almost like porridge... The second attempt was better but still too much water ...

And finally, I got my camera back ! hahahha
So my future foodie post will be filled with pictures again...

This will be a short post... as I'm deadly tired...

I'm Loooooneeeeely !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Who wants to accompany me for movies ??
This list is sooo long and I just wish I had someone to go with me.. :(

Scramble Egg ~ Success

2008-04-19T01:31:00.003+08:00

Oh I forget that today is the first time I made scramble egg like "What a scramble egg should look like" hehehhe..

Most of the time, they're too cooked or they look like fried egg... they're nothing like the ones served in Coffee Bean or Western Restaurant..

Today came back.. feeling Very very hungry.. dig around...

Found:

- Kimchi instant noodle
- eggs
- sausages..

Then suddenly I thought of scramble egg... hmmm maybe I should attempt it today...

So, by just remembering one of the video demo, I followed everything and Voila ~!
I made it today....

Again...I don't' have the photos to show them!!!!.. Frustrating .. ** drops to floor.. kicking legs... sulking !

hahhahaha..

As usual, I don't have any recipe for this.. just egg, butter , milk, some salt and pepper..
And the most important point is to cook at a very very low heat...
I added some herbs .. mmmmm delicious & sinfully good !

**Wonder if I could get the same taste again ..
I'm like my grandma... I don't go with measurements.. I go by instinct and also by tasting it along the way..
Sigh..mum always scolds me ...and say that how am I going to maintained the quality of the food when I go on cooking like this..

- throwing things when I feel like it or when I suddenly remember...
- don't follow the recipe..but it always turned out great the first attempt and fails miserably on second attempt onwards ** classic example: my macaron !!! the first time was great and I thought.. that's wasn't hard.. I managed them... but on my second attempt.. everything went so wrong !.. Even now I didn't dare to make another try.
- Sometimes even with the recipe ... I do omit some of the ingredient... This I don't do it purposely.. I just forgot !

Making cupcake filling at freaking 12.44am

2008-04-19T00:44:00.003+08:00

Yup, u read correctly !
Sis's b'day is on this coming Sunday but it wasn't for her that I was keen on baking...
It's for Sel's potluck gathering this Sunday.. but its good that Sis is celebrating tomorrow..
BBQ at the comfort of own home... well there's a lot to do though.. hehe

okay back to the cup cake.. i was undecided whether to make the pear cupcake or the peanut cupcake.

I'm really inspired by Chockylit when cupcake is concerned hehe.. all her post are so great and tempting....

I got this recipe from her website.. but because I don't have any pear at home.. I decided to change it to apples ! Hahahaha I have the tendency to change things... and I don't follow the recipe exactly.. even the measurements.. that's why my stuff always come out wrong sometimes....

Using 2 small green apples, and following the rest of her recipe.. I made the apple filling just now... taste good ! It's like apple pie's filling... not too sweet.. and the way I love it..
Here's the rest of the recipe....

I'll be making the cupcake and frosting tomorrow...
But I'm sad coz i don't have any photos... Hmmph! I vow to own a camera by next month !

Old-Fashioned Chocolate Cupcakes
~30 regular cupcakes / 375 degree oven

1 cup (2 sticks) butter, room temp
2-1/2 cups sugar4 large eggs, room temp
1-1/2 cups flour
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
1 cup milk
2 teaspoons vanilla

1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees.

2. Beat butter until softened. Add sugar and beat until light and fluffy, about 3 minutes.

3. Add eggs, one at a time, beating until well combined.

4. Measure the flour, baking powder, baking soda, salt, and cocoa powder into a small sized bowl and whisk to combine.

5. Measure out the milk and vanilla and stir to combine

6. Add about a third of the dry ingredients to the butter/sugar and beat to combine. Add about a half of the milk/vanilla and beat to combine. Continue adding, alternating between dry and wet and finishing with the dry.

7. Scoop batter into cupcake cups about 1/2’s full. Turn oven down to 350 degrees and bake cupcakes for about 22-25 minutes or until a cake tester comes out clean.

Pear Filling

1 good sized pear, pealed, pitted, and chopped into small dice

1/2 cup water

2 tablespoons sugar

2 tablespoons cornstarch

1/3 vanilla bean

1. Add pear and water to a medium sized pan. Cook for 10 minutes over medium-high heat.

2. Stir together sugar and cornstarch then stir into the pears.

3. Split open the vanilla bean and scrape out the seeds. Add the seeds to the pears.

4. Cook until thick, about 5-10 minutes. Remove from heat, transfer to a bowl and let cool to room temperature.

Soft Vanilla Buttercream Frosting

2 sticks (1 cup) butter, room temperature

4 cups sifted powdered sugar

1 teaspoon vanilla

1/3 vanilla bean

2 tablespoons milk

1. Beat butter at medium-high speed until creamy.

2. Sift powdered sugar into the mixer bowl (right on top of the beaten butter). Beat to combine.

3. Split open the vanilla bean and scrape out the seeds. Add the seeds to the frosting.

4. Add the vanilla and the milk. Beat until combined.

Well, I'm sorry I don't have any photos.. but please go see her website.. you'll be hooked !

Normal Sunday..

2008-04-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

Sorry .. i just need to say sorry...
Yes I'm the one to leave him ....
and I did confess that I no longer had feelings for him
Yet why yesterday I suddenly remembered that it was his birthday,,, and I was thinking should I call him to wish him ?
I've thought of doing that on the day I broke off from him...
Well......finally I decided it was not necessary..
Yes I'm silly and stupid .. and I still can't totally get over him..
But I do realise its not all worth it..... yada yada.....

Sienz.. typical Sunday and it passed by super fast...
tomorrow is starting a brand new week Again!
I can't imagine.. but I really feel the days are passing way too fast....

Missed Sunday mass coz I was too sleepy to get up due to insufficient sleep last Thurs and Friday..
Woke up to have breakfast with Dad and mum nearby..
Grandma and Uncle Joseph came for a visit and we had lunch at Queensbay...

Had afternoon nap and woke up hungry... went to feed June and slept again...
Later , I went out again to fill up the petrol... drop by at Tesco Extra to get rice for June and Dettol..
All for her :)

Open an account at the comic store... rent about 11 books..
but the books here are much less compared to the Farlim branch.
If i knew I wouldn't open the account here...

Sienz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cake Deco class

2008-04-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

Yippee.. I've just signed up for the cake deco class... For beginners **grin :D
Aunt is sponsoring half ....

Date : 3rd & 4th May 2008.. (Saturday and Sunday)

Yay .. Im looking forward it so much

Dead tired

2008-04-12T22:08:00.002+08:00

13th April 2008

I was on clubbing marathon since Thursday nite and also on Friday nite...
Some thought that I went back into my clubbing days due to the separation...
But hell no !... why would I do that for...

Thurs~
Joined Mei, Ang , KJ & Danny at SOHO for drink.. and I only drank 2 glass of beer...
nothing more .. and we left SOHO about 11pm for Hokkien mee...
Finally arrived home at about 12 o'clock..
I don't think its a bad idea to just chilled out since I didn't go anywhere lately...
and not to mention ..Free beer haha :)
With the right level of alcohol in my blood, I thought I could have a good nite sleep..
Heck! I woke up with a big headache at freaking 5 am !.. ** Cursed ! cursed ! cursed !
WTF?? why in world would I got this blardy headache at this shitty wee hours...
I didn't' over drank the alcohol... I didn't vomit...
Then I tossed and turned hoping I could fall back into my slumber .. but after miserable minute passed.. I was getting very annoyed and also suffering..
Was quite hesitate to swallow the tablets.. but in the end I gave in...
I took 2 paracetamol and dumped myself back into my bed...
and I continue sleeping muahhahahaha..

Fri~
At first Mei told me to join her at SS with her ex-colleague and she wanted to intro a guy for me...
too bad I suck at pickup lines ... let alone to 'tackle' a guy..
if i knew that I would have done that much earlier.. haha.. typical me..
Well he was okay to me.... look wise: matured... money wise: Mei said he's very well-off...
But he's quiet.. Im quiet .... and he got the same surname as my EX !
Went home about 240++ am for Hokkien mee... had some share of laughter and finally arrive home at 3.40 am....

Well, not bad for both outings.. though I really lacked of rest.. I need to recharge as I woke up early for my Saturday shift...

Far too long and too much happening

2008-04-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

I know I've thought of abandon this blog of mine coz its been left to rot for months!!! ,
even I would have readers.. they are long gone...

I'm still experimenting with food.. only that I don't have my camera to take down the photos..
** they're with my uncle.. he borrowed them...

Well Im going to get one myself...

Okay I intended to update a few days ago... about my life....

I'm finally single and available again... I simply couldn't put up with him anymore...
and it's my life and decision on how I want my life to be..

So this is my final decision.. I wanna be happy.. I deserve someone better who loves me unconditionally.. even my babe ** Labrador could... why not human ?

It was hard and difficult but nonetheless.. its for my own good... I can't change the past and of my doings.. but I can determined to have a brighter and better future :)

Well.. at least I don't feel the urge to jump into a new relationship or getting someone .. should I say.. we grow with experience ?? I was hasty with my decision to go back to him in 2006.. maybe it was because of the bouquet of flowers... they never fail to make me melt. hahaha..
or perhaps he ended our relationship abruptly in 2004 and I always wanted to get back...

now merely into 2008.. we're back to square one... horrifying shadows begin to appear and I even bumped into that bitch many many times... I still curse her everytime I see her... Husband stealer... even dare to say she knows he's married but he loves him. Jien !

But I think there's no point doing it..

Everyone is happy and supportive of my decision.. including his dad ... none could compare with my very own parents... who was very careful with me when I broke the news to them at an early morning of 7.30 am that I'm taking an emergency leave to pack all my stuff back from his apartment.

Now ?? I'm feeling great... a heavy burden had been lift off my shoulders... friend's invitations kept pouring in.... movie marathons on most Wednesday.. Full concentration on my ever-demanding work...

Though sometimes I would still ponder what would happen if I do this and that...
and its hard to leave someone you love for almost 15 years... and at this point now still loving him though I should not....afterall.. i'm not cold blooded~!

think this is what we called comfort zone.... known each other too much that we couldn't carry on as couple.. too stale that we don't even know our feelings for each other..

So leaving him is the best thing for both of us....

How i did it ?? well think rationally :

at the age of 27....

- jobless, in big debts , not looking for proper job...no intentions of settling down...

now above reasons are already far too scary to make any gals run away... and yet there are still some of them who adored him...

Well not anymore for me...

Im pinning for a family.. a loving husband with a steady job and filial to parents...and someone I could bring home and be proud of .. and also someone who loves me unconditionally... and for who I'm.. and hopefully I could have kids :)

I know I know I wrote before I hate kids... but I would love to have 1 or 2 with someone I love in future.. ** that is if I could meet one....

Mum, the fortune teller sucks kay ! I'm single now and how could I possibly found the one this year when I just had so many unlucky happenings.. sigh...

Kay.. too many ranting in this post.. I'm not sure should I move to a new blog or continue with this...

28th December 2007

2007-12-28T12:14:00.000+08:00

Hell yeah I can access this from my office ^_^
Been lazy and left my blog to rot for more than a month..
Well the picture uploading tool gets on my nerve so I spent most of time
experiencing and trying new stuff in the kitchen...
Raw ingredients are so expansive nowadays... I'm broke immediately when I purchase alot
of stuff for Christmas :)....

Will upload and share them when I can hehe...
We had a small gathering at home this year.. unlike the previous ones..
we used to eat out at hotel...2 years consecutively in EQ...

- Stuffed Chicken
- Cupcakes **failed mostly and left 4 nia ... muahahhahaha
- Prepare alot of Strawberries served with whipped cream ... Yummy ... no pics though..
(too busy eating and dumped the camera in my room)
- bought bacons ! my all time bbq favourite :)
- Truffles ! Yeah... easy and delicious..

Okay lah.. will update later.. my place is not so strategic to blog long post :(

Bee Hoon Soup . Home made ^_^

2007-11-29T21:55:00.001+08:00

On one of the weekend, mum didn't cooked rice so she decided to make beehoon soup :)
So she prepare lotsa stuff :

Ingredients :

Bee Hoon ** Soaked with water
Dori Fish, cut into bite pieces and coat with egg and corn starch before deep fry till golden brown.
Some slices of ginger.
Some green vegetables.
Some prawns** optional
Maggie Chicken stock
Some fried garlic and garlic oil.

Stem part

leaves..

Fried Dori fish

Bee Hoon.

Method:

1 - Heat about half bowl of water, add in about 1 Tbsp Maggie Chicken stock and the slices of

ginger and when it boils, add in the stem of the selected vegetable and some fried garlice

(chopped) .

*** Okay okay, my secret, at this point usually I will shelled out the prawns and let it boil together so the soup will be sweet and it will have a tint of seafood aroma..if you look carefully you can see the prawn head above hehe :)

2. Next add in the Dori fish and Bee hoon.

3. Followed by the leaves of the vege, prawns and add to taste. Dish up :)
Err.. remember to remove the unwanted prawn shells ;P

Tada ~! Love the prawns and extra garlic oil Yummy :)

Isn't it simple ? by this way you safe about $10 bucks.. That's the price you pay for out in the hawker stall ....

Sudden Crave for Junk food from Night Market.

2007-11-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

Last Wednesday, I couldn't resist and went over to the Farlim night market to get below food..
I was really craving hard..but they are very pricey... :(
Nonetheless... eat mah,,, where got waste wan hahaha

Japanese pancake with sausage and cheese filling and others are filled with kaya.

This is also another type of Japanese pancake with coconut shreds filling.

Some Japanese food .. hmm I couldn't remember what was it called.. I know "Tako something" :)

These are also Tako (octopus) on skewers and cooked with Teriyaki sauce Yum yum

This is the only packe of food not originated from Japan..Its Uncle Bob's Taiwan style Fried Chicken... ** Sprinkled with lotsa hot chilli powder haha

Here goes.. My Wednesday night dinner.... full of junk food .. hehe ^_^

Japanese Kaya pancake ~ 4pcs for $1 .....I ordered $2

Japanes Coconut pancake ~ 4pcs for $1 .... I also order $2

Japances Sausage & Cheese pancake ~ $1.30.. of course lah I only ordered 1 pcs..

Tako Skewers ~ $1 for each stick... again I ordered 2 for $2

Japanese Tako Balls.. ^_^ ~ $3.50 per box for 5 balls..

Uncle Bob Fried Chicken ~ $4.80 per packet...

1 cup of sweet herbal tea ~ $1.60

1 packet of bitter herbal tea plus medicated powder ~ hefty $3 bucks !!! can't imagine so damn expansive...

Bought two CD's... one Jay Chou's new CD and Victor's English album ~ $10..

So, as you can see... its a very expansive outing though its only a night market..

I spent approx $ 30 bucks...Haih ... *** shake head...

Champagne Sorbet

2007-11-29T21:08:00.000+08:00

While I was on my long leave, there were quite a few stuff I made but didn't have the time to publish them..

Well to start, I'm going to share on making Champagne Sorbet... Ice-cream minus the cream >_^

Ingredients:
A
160g Sugar
130ml Water
B
400ml Champagne
30ml Lemon juice
1 Egg white

** I use Prinz Champagne

Ingredients from left clockwise: Champagne, sugar, water, lemon juice & egg white

Method:

1. Cooked A into syrup and leave to cool.

2. In a clean container, pour in the syrup.

3. Lastly, add in ingredient B.

4. Freeze until semi set or until almost solid. Remove from freezer and blend until smooth.

Return to the freezer and refreeze until firm..

Starbucks at E-gate

2007-11-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

18th November '07

Sigh another miserable way to kill my time...
I 've just met up with Selina to catch up our times... It's been too long since the last time we've meet up. She brought Emeryn along and chat for quite a while..
Mei's also due and she's going to deliver very very soon..

Today as usual I'm all farked up again..
Life's miserable.. Relationship sucks!! And I think I don't know how to keep up with the relationship anymore..
I've tried so hard and my damn best and yet its always never satisfy him or good enough for him to spent some time with me...

Hmmm let's see.. I just had my hair trim today.. also follow up with a hefty $100 hair treatment that comes with a product which is worth $92 on the shelf...The cut was $40 ...
And I could say its all worth it.. considering that the product alone already cost $92 :)
Plus I've not done anything to my hair for the past year...
I'm considerate one of those few gal that don't actually spent hundreds on hair every month or two..

Now its already 10 am and I thought of spending another hour or two.. if I could stand being here than going back to an empty house..

It's so sad.. I'm sad and I could feel numb all over me...
Should I be giving up ??
This question had been playing in my mind alot alot and I really MEAN ALOT OF TIMES....

Could a man help me on my question ?
What would a man do when he looses all the affection towards his gal ?
What are the signs ?

I tried to read them however he's showing me mixed signs....
How am I to know what he exactly trying to say ?..

Sigh.. I guess it would be one of the unsolved mystery... or will remain unsolved until he sorted out what are his feelings..

Difference between my Ex & Current Boss..

2007-11-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

15th November 2007

I finally understand why I couldn't stand my Ex-boss (a lady) ..you may called it superstitious but I blame it on feng shui.. Roosters can't get along with Rabbits.. and that's what it was between my ex-boss and myself.. she seems to get on my nerves every month end when I was in the Finance Team.. even now @_@

To me, as my superior, you're there to guide me and to help me whenever I face difficulties but she wasn't there to help, in fact kept digging down "Why did I made that mistake" At times, even its uncontrollable issues are being put upon my shoulder.. and she always insisted that I settle that shit!. So without much choice, I need to provide types of solution and my solution never once approved by her...So ?? what do you expect me to do ?? If I knew this would happen I wouldn't be so stupid to do it and later lettin you shouting and scolding at me wouldn't it ?

- Admit that I'm wrong --> she's never satisfied
- Provided solutions --> none is usable or feasible to her

WHat the fark you want me to do ?? This cannot , That cannot.. so clever you solve LAH!

So that's the reason I left the department and join my current boss in a new dept.
But too bad, our path still cross and we're still dealing issues together though not directly..

My current boss.. **Ah-hem also a lady boss.. PLS read carefully !
She guided me eversince the first day I joined her team. And I'm her only subordinate.
Never tired of teaching me new things... Provided solutions and also taught me alot of ways to handling matters properly & professionally..
She's not a person who's always up on your back checking what you've been doing every hour.
She trusted me! She even praised me when I did something good.. ** now that's what I called a superb boss and she's very kind with compliments and also motivation...

Today, we had an issue on our work which involves both my dept and Finance (my ex-boss) dept. Issues arise, my ex-boss fire fighting with her finance team internally and suddenly my team was being drag into the picture..Communications do break down at times and this was what happen.
As usual, emails were flying around...fingers pointing everywhere and I was being pressured into solving it as me & my boss was involve. I've successfully calmed down a few of people involved but suddenly another email from Ex-boss blew me off...
At this point I couldn't handle it anymore, I msg my boss and she settled it..

Out of anger, I shot another email to all asking them to stop pointing fingers instead solve the bloody thing. Its wasting so much time in drafting email fire fighting and none even take the initiative to try to think of a solutions...While I was there trying to help I was being shot too..Sigh..

Felt the sense of satisfaction as the mail was directed to my ex-boss.. Indirectly Im telling her its useless to fight and not providing solution...Muahahahha I'm so happy.. and yet Im so tired..
Luckily tomorrow Im on leave hehehehehe...

I'm so tired of babysitting staff and teaching them how to write a proper emails.. sigh that is supposed to be their job why am I doing all these for them ??

KimChi Fried Rice

2007-11-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

Another food blog. haha

KimChi Fried Rice
** For 2 persons

Ingredients:
1 big onion cut into small cubes
2 pcs of ham, cube
1 green chili ** optional
1 egg
1 cup of Kimchi
1 1/2 cup of rice ** preferably overnight rice.
some chopped garlic
some spring onion

from left clockwise: Spring onions,onions,green chilli & ham

KimChi

Method:

1) Heat wok with some oil.

2) Fry garlic till fragrant before adding onions and fry for a few minutes.

3) Then add in the green chili and stir.

4) Set the mixture aside in the pan and fry the ham on the other side.

5) When the ham is cooked, add in the Kimchi and fry for a approx 2 mins.

6) Add in the rice and mix evenly.

7) Add seasoning to taste..** I would recommend a few dash of soy sauce.

8) Turn off the heat when its cooked

Serve with Fried egg on top.

Oh man... I suck with those words and cooking terms.. pardon me... :)

My APAC & US Co-workers :)

2007-11-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

Once of a lifetime event :)

Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm so proud and happy to meet them face to face

Sarah Minsterman (US) , Joanne Maramag (Philippines),Svolio Kim(Korea), (^_^),Ruby (Taiwan) & Joseph (Singapore)
Joanne,Svolio,(^_^),Ruby & Joseph ** 2nd Pic abit loosen up muahaha

** 1st Pic..all so stiff and serious..

Look Alike... haha

2007-11-14T15:19:00.000+08:00

Wanna try them ?? It's fun...
But I thnk I finally reveal my face :P

http://www.myheritage.com/

Char Siew

2007-11-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

I just don't know what's gotten into me recently..

I'm so into food blog and exploring recipes...

Earlier on, I was into Korean food.. now I'm just into anything I could make..

Another successful try.. Char Siew (**made this upon request)

Ingredients:

Marinade

4 Tbsp Oyster sauce

4 Tbsp Tomato sauce

3 Tbsp Soya sauce **would prefer less of this coz the beancurd is already salty

1 tsp Sesame oil

3 Tbsp sugar

1 piece red fermented beancurd

1 Tbsp Chinese wine

1 Tbsp five spice powder

a few drops of red colouring ** optional

Mix all the marinate ingredients together

Marinate the pork for at least 4 hours or overnight would be better.

Then grill or barbecue the pork. When the pork is almost cooked, glaze with honey..

Finally ~! hehehe

Green Tea Ice Cream

2007-11-08T21:40:00.000+08:00

Okay, again I alter a recipe and change them into a new one..
I've always love green tea ice-cream but buying them is always expansive.
That is when I thought of an idea... to change an ice-cream recipe.. haha
And finally after one try, I managed to make them :)

Ingredients:

~ 250ml Full cream milk
~ 300g Whipping Cream
~ 80g sugar
~ 1/2 tsp vanilla essence
~ 4 egg yolk
~ 2 Tbsp green tea powder diluted with 2Tbsp of boiling water

**I use Millac Whipping Cream & Dutchlady Full cream milk

From left clockwise: whipping cream, sugar, milk, egg yolk, green tea & vanilla essence.

** This is how green tea powder diluted with boiling water looked like..

Method:

1) Boil milk.

2) Cream egg yolk with sugar till pale.

** The creamed egg yolk and sugar should looked like above

3) Pour the mixture into the boiled milk like above pic and wait for it to cool

4) Add in vanilla essence and green tea mixture.

5) In a separate bowl, whip the whipping cream till stiff.

6) Fold in the whipped cream with the earlier mixture till creamy and pour into container to chill overnite..

Silly Things I do to kill my time....

2007-11-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

Okay guys.. this is what I do when I have too much time...

WHEN I'M ALONE.. =(

I will go to a nice place.. like Gurney Walk..to Gurney Hotel

Walk into Coffee Bean

Get myself a glass of Earl Grey and read Shin Chan...

Hahaha siao hor ??

Nyonya Cafe @ New World Park

2007-11-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

3rd November 2007

Today we didn't went for our Sunday mass instead we went to the cemetary. It was "All Souls Day" yesterday but we couldn't came during working hours. Put some flowers and say some prayers to my grand dad...

After that we had our brunch at Nyonya Cafe at new world park....

We ordered few numbers of the famous dish..such as :

Nasi Ulam, Nasi Lemak, Nyonya Laksa..All the dishes taste very good and nice.

Not to mention .. the price is Very reasonable too..

Here are the photos...Do enjoy and try :)

This is how the restaurant look like~

Interior design

Here are the food photos :

Nasi Ulam ~ Approx RM 6

Nasi Lemak (consists of 3 pcs curry chicken, acar, hard boiled egg) ~ Approx RM 7

Nyonya Laksa ~ Approx RM 6

Stuffed Dumpling ~ Approx RM 3.50

And some other stuff that I forgot to take photos coz we're too hungry by that time hehe..

Miso Soup

2007-10-30T17:46:00.000+08:00

Fancy Miso soup from the Japanese restaurant ?

I've tried making it using Dwen Jang paste and this is the recipe :)

It's very simple and you can cook this within 10 mins including preparations.

Actually this recipe is my own and I tried by dumping everything by instinct hahaha...

Ingredients:

1 Tbsp of Dwen Jang (I'm using Korean bean paste) / miso paste
1/4 Tofu - cut into cubes
7g Wakame - dried kelps ** can be found in major supermarkets
2 bowls of water
some spring Onion

Method:

1) Soak wakame (seaweed) till its soft.

2) Heat water and add in Dwen Jang / Miso paste.

3) Add in tofu and wakeme (seaweed)

4) Add salt & some sugar to taste.

5) Turn off the heat and top with spring onions..

Chocolate Brandy Muffins

2007-10-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

When I came home after work last Saturday, my hands started to itch after reading all those food blogs.. Hence I decided to bake Chocolate Brandy Muffins.. the recipe looked very simple to make. Here goes...

Chocolate Brandy Muffins

Ingredients:
160 gm flour
2 tsp baking powder
3 Tbsp cocoa powder
75gm sugar
35gm chocolate chips
75gm melted butter
125ml milk
1 egg
2 Tbsp brandy

Method:

1. Heat oven in 200 cc.
2. Sift flour, baking powder and cocoa powder. Add in chocolate chips and sugar.

3. Whisk egg, brandy and melted butter.

4. Fold in the dry ingredients into the batter lightly. (maximum 10 strokes)

5. Spoon mixture into the prepared muffin cases. Sprinkle on top some chocolate chips*Optional

6. Bake for 12 - 15 mins or until skewer inserted into the center of the muffin and comes out clean.

** Baking in oven

~ Muffin !

Decorated with Hazelnut and some deco

Darn!!!

2007-10-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

The idiotic picture uploader is screwing up again..

Will post later .. Bah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nice Evening View

2007-10-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

These pictures were taken in one of those special evening when it was about to rain...

** See the lil' rainbow ?

** Taken after a few minutes from the first picture...Sky in beautiful, breathtaking orange :)

and the rainbow too...

** With my babe roaming around.. haha

What can be said ....

2007-10-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

Today again I'm feelin shitty...
I'm not sure why but recently again, I thought my blog would be a place for me to load all my anger, happiness, my hopes , my despair ... but now I realise I couldn't wrote all those in here.. Im not sure is it because I'm not being sincere to my caring friends or Im still lying to myself and kept me in blind all this while..
MOST of my doings are all my decisions and most of it ended wounding myself and destructing my self.. I'm left without dignity and felt so low of myself...
Am I that worthless ?? Should I be doing this ?? Will "He" realise someday that without me he would feel the pain and longing ??

IS it all worthwhile ?? Can't I live without him ?? Can't I really live without a man ??

I dunno how to answer all these questions.. Only I can say is that when i thought my own home would be my place to shelter and protect me from harm would suddenly turned into hell.. That's when I run to his place to seek shelter and .. smoke... if this doesn't sound bad.. the worst would be I feel now Im relying into cigarettes to calm myself...I'm not addicted... No; not at this level.. its just I need to let of of the anger by smoking... it makes me calm down..and Im smoking more heavily now...Probably that would be the reason some claimed that I've slim down...

I feel there's no where I could turn myself to when Im sad... there's no one who really I can rely on except for myself...
And I have no one to cry to...
He's still so cold... most of the time SO cold towards me...
and at times he still show some care....

I thought of moving into his place.... bringing my TV and hifi set so I don't have to fight with his brother for the TV in the living room.. and If I'm staying there, I would have the priority to the car park... So I pop-up the question last night.... his reaction ???.....

".....[Silence].... YOu have those keys... you have this room... so its up to You ! and don't came telling me how expansive your petrol is......I can't even help myself so don't expect me to help you!"

This was so heartbreaking ....

The part that left me feeling all numb.....

I arrived at his place on Sunday 3pm...
- Doors not locked
- A pungent smell from the kitchen... and it's from a leftover soup in a pot filled with maggots!
- A dead fish in the aquarium

This really drove me crazy! How could a young adult be so lazy and leave a pot of leftover soup to rot and filled with maggots! and they could actually leave the house without locking the doors ??

What am I to them ?? Indonesian maid ?? I told him of his brother's doing and his answer was..

" I know... leave it there.. I want him to cleaned the mess... Until the day I cannot tolerate, he'll knows what I'll do ...."

me : So now ?? how the pot and the damn kitchen smells! I don't even dare to sit in the living room !

"So what ?? Don't tell me you're gonna clean them ? "

me: Of course not ! I'm very lazy at home too... but I don't leave things to rot till they're filled with maggots! ** hair standing on my arms...

In the end I put a plastic bag, cover the pot and kept it in the bathroom ...
(The bathroom only used by his brothers, I'm always using the toilet in the master bedroom)
I also sprayed alot of air deodorant... open up all the windows...

Now IM FEELING ALL NUMB... Why I'm having feelings for this kind of man ??
Why Im doing and puttin up with all this nuisance ??

That's the reason I got another 017 number and also thought of getting a part time job to prevent me from doing all those additional things... If god allow ... I would try to leave this man slowly.....in hope of getting someone better..

Age is catching up .. and I REALLY wish to have a family and begin with kids....I can't be waiting for him.. for his situation to get better...

Looking back, to him, I'm willing to do all these things... it is I, who choose to go this way.. not him.. as if he doesn't feel a single pain nor different at all with or without me!
Feeling he's taking me for Granted way too much....

Pulau Pangkor

2007-10-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

Tagged along for a very short Pulau Pangkor trip...
The main reason going there was to pray for ancestors.. so I just hop in the car and went for a short 2 day 1 nite trip stay with relatives..Started our journey at approx 10.30 am and drove all the way to Lumut.
Personally I really love Pangkor for the peaceful and laidback kind of living..
The air is free from polution and most importantly most of them speak Hokkien !
Arrived at the island late in the afternoon about 4pm +.. Rest for a while before I joined those kids for a swim by the seaside.. I thought of enjoying the sun set and dipping in the sea but in I ended up baby sitting 3 kids; asking me to pull their floats with them along so they feel like swimming.. End up my whole leg cramped for the night.. And the rest of the day and night just past thru like a breeze... most of the time were filled with hunting for food .. LOL...
I end up putting on weight from this trip ... >_<.. yikes !!

Lumut Jetty Terminal

Moments away to reach Pulau Pangkor

Fish Boats docking at the bay

The road on the island are mostly consist of motorcycles

Visited Foo Lin Kong Temple

A bridge over the pond.. where there is a giant fish living in the pond

Famous Pangkor local food - Lai Fun

"Kon Lou" Laksa - Almost like wan tan mee with a splash of Laksa soup..

Yummy my favourite!

Dinner at Dragon-I Queenbay's mall

2007-10-15T21:43:00.000+08:00

Saturday nite..
Dad wasn't working and he was talking bout the meal at Dragon-I..
Due to my swollen eye in the morning, I was practically lazy to go out for any meal...
Who would want to walk around with puffy eyes ??
But dad set a bait and told me he was going to dine in Dragon-I...
After being tempted, I couldn't resist... so I went along ahahaha..

The whole meal cost about $124.00 including tax and service charge..

Shanghainese Braised Pork Belly with Beancurd Leaves

Fried Ramen with Shredded Chicken & Mushroom ** Something like that

Steamed Rise With Chicken, mushroom & Lap Cheong ** Again I couldn't remember the name

Ever famous Xiao Long Bao

** Same goes here.. something had to do with egg yolk and custard... =P

Desserts..

Pomelo Mango Sago Cream

Snow Jelly

Trimming of June's fur on its toes

2007-10-15T21:39:00.001+08:00

I've pretty crazy and cranky so I trim and cut June's fur on its toes to look like below..

Awww... don't they look nice and neat :)

Mum's Birthday 11th Oct '07

2007-10-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

Mum's birtday was on the 11th Oct.. well a freaking month with soo many birthdays including mum's .. Well too bad I spent too much during my KL trip, so Im only left with 50 bucks for mum... Sis went to get all her presents as I'm really running out of ideas what to get for mum. All these years we got her so many stuff... diamond ring and earings.. watches.. perfumes.. now sis got her a handbag, a top and an ice-cream cake.. we couldn't afford much as 3 of us share on those pressies.. Dad already got mum N76 in advance bout 2 months back..

We had our dinner at nearby seafood shop.. Ate prawns, fish, shell fish, fried beehoon & maggie mee... and later she blew her b'day cake candles at home....

Oh Darn .. I forget those pictures....

Too many happenings.

2007-10-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

Time had been passing way too fast for October, for when I realised I haven't blog for quite some time already.. Went to KL end of September... and the following weekend again, I followed them to Pangkor.. I had many pictures but I'm just plain lazy to post them.. hehe

Today will be a short post... too many things going on my mind and latest strange doings of mine :

Got additional 017 sim card...
Strong urge to get another part time job ... example : Starbucks Barrista.. not sure if it was influenced by the recent Korean Drama I was watching.. >_<

4 Things You Cannot recover....

2007-09-28T16:59:00.001+08:00

New Aquarium tank

2007-09-28T14:47:00.000+08:00

Okay.. there's a new aquarium tank in my apartment.. He's been crazy bout it for years and finally he bought them.. and we have many guppies swimming around..
But the tank's workmanship is rough.. and I got a cut from the sharp edge..
We went to a shop in Air Itam... a big warehouse selling many stuff for the aquarium and also fishes.. but there wasn't that much of variety.. or should I say.. it didn't get my attention..

I did join in his younger brother to pick those fishes.. and Yeah I'm also happy just looking at those colourful fishes swimming around..

But some of them went dead the next day..
This always happen..

so last Sunday, after Sunday mass my dad asked if I wanna go to Chew Thean Yang Aquarium shop. Of course I agreed! I never decline a trip there.. After all its my sort of heaven :O)
Love to see those dogs, cats, hamsters.. and latest attraction.. I'm into fishes...
Went there .. fork out 25 dollars..getting 18 more fishes... more guppies.. 2 sucker fish..
Ngiak ngiak ngiak.. now those suckers have upgraded.. no longer black colour available..there are also orange and yellow..but I picked up the black and orange colour the moment I saw them..I'm going to get the yellow one next trip..

I went to my apartment about late 3pm.. release those fishes..

And another good new.. WE actually have a baby fish! Can u imagine that ?? meaning the fish that we bought together with the aquarium actually give birth and the baby fish hatched! hahaha..

Now the whole aquarium is filled with multi-coloured fishes

Going KL for the Weekend

2007-09-28T14:39:00.000+08:00

The last week of September just went tru like a blink of an eye.. nothing much happen except that I got another MC on Tuesday for freaking stomach ache.. not something new or serious... it's my old monthly tummy pain..

Then on Monday, Jas called asking me to come over to KL this weekend... I was like :

"HUH ??? siao ar.. why suddenly u wan me to came this weekend pula ??"
"No la.. I'm following u home after this... they are having long holiday for Raya, if you come 1st week of Oc, then I need to be alone in KL for another week mah.. Come lah.... "...Jas said.
"Okay lah..."

Without thinking much I only wanted a longer holiday so I thought of taking Monday and Tuesday together.. I planned to head down on Saturday and coming back on Monday.

And Suddenly.... SHIT!! I just remembered I need to attend one of my schoolmate's wedding dinner on Saturday.. Haiya... so I bought the Sunday Ticket at 10am...
Leaving on a Plusliner bus..

Pray and hope to GOD that I have a save trip to and flo...

Btw,... I'm travelling alone this time.. will take some pics.... to post in my photo Bucket account.