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Can't u love me?

If you post the above in FB or any status update, ppl will probably jump to one conclusion...
You're trying to get a guy/gal to love you... however have you tried to think about yr loved ones like your family?

This is the love and attention I crave for.. though I don't deny I want to be romantically loved by a significant other however the most important thing in life would be your family and friends!
Well, I feel that I'm not really being favoured at home... (Whoa... I did say I feel right?)

Yeah! That's the exact reaction they gave me. Sadly ... they say I'm overly jealous & self centered. They also claimed I'm very fortunate already. I know and I agreee.. only partly.

If I'm jealous and self centered;

• would I gave up studying my favourite subject and take up accounting? cheapest subject & has the most openings?
• would I stop studying to help when dad looses his part time job?
• would I get a car and service a RM600 loan per month while I'm only earning RM850 per mth?
• did I make a big fuss when you paid her study loan of 20K? I know you paid for almost 10K on my studies too.
• Gettin this job isn't my favourite line.. but for survival..do I have other choice?
• Did I asked to be entangled in a bad and failed relationship that cost me so dearly?

Many of the above are not what I asked for or wanted to do... I too, want to study my favourite subject, a career to my liking, a good relationship.... but this is life.. and it's harsh...

However, do you have to stomp on me when all I did was a saying a stupid joke?

I'm extremely disappointed .... so painful that I cried non stop...

This was the worst time of life after my 'painful' experience in year 2003 & 2007.

Just wished I was gone in year 2003 and I don't have to go through this....

Fate has it..... and I'm still here .... sadly.....